daulpheen:)

2009-06-22T21:13:00.004+08:00

Life is crazy
But what matters is how you deal with it(:

Hey all, feeling much better and stuff. thanks for all those people who were comforted me and stuff:D Well, the weekend has passed real fast. So, Saturday was craziness for me. plain craziness. hah. After tuition, rushed to Suntec for ISO then checked out the shops then realised THIS FASHION wasn't there. So had to change to FOX. All survey forms were rushily ammended. haha. then commenced with observational study which was dead boring:/ ah wells, then survey part was crazy, we ran all over Suntec to find people. to no avail. i was perspiring like nobody's business and we got lost:( zzz -__- it was still quite funn hahah. thanks guys(:

After which, I rushed to church and was late:( okay that seriously sucks:( sooo...Kevin preached. about a lot of stuff. and all. I dunno but I just couldn't concentrate throughout the whole service. cos of just so many things around me that was bothering. i dunno. it really sucked. i hope it won't happen again.

Then, Dad fetched me to performance class. oh gosh, everyone's parents were there, mine wasn't. And I felt just like crap inside. Then, played first. It went okay, a bit of stumbles, but it was bothering me. didn't play with any emotion whatsoever. Mum rushed and came late cos of misunderstandings. Rushed to no avail. Sighs. It was crap. Anyway, so went home. A lot of misunderstandings sorted out. My day was :( . eight-to-eight. I was drained.

Sunday was coolest manz!:D Had cg, went okay lah. Then, Daddy preached at GraceStar. So cool right? haha. went there to support. then yah just listen and stuff. Then Aunty Liza say I must give the present they were making to Daddy so I did lo. haha. After church, went to Vivo to eat Father's day lunch(: lovelt lunch. dee-licious stuff:D and we took pics with daddy:D haha. and then, went Challenger to shop. hah. then, went home, napped a bit. After that, went for uber late dinner at Crystal Jade. And yeah, yummy food too!:)

Today, I did the cutting out of my design for my cushion cover:D It turned out really nice haha. super proud of it! Go see on fb if you haven't. I will sew in yiyi's house or at school. I haven't decided haha. But design not complete cos words still havent sew yet, heh. okay..today did quite a fair bit of stuff bahh:) haha. shall get back to work now.

byee!

2009-06-17T20:54:00.003+08:00

In need..
I've suddenly just lost it. HELP.

I'm tired, I'm drained.

I dunno why. The emptiness is coming back:( i feel like crap. its hurting. i wish life could be better and stuff. The emptiness comes when I think about it. Outside my house, just outside. I always feel the odd one out. There's no one to lean on, no one there to support me. And really just no one. Even when I feel hurt, really no one cares. Some ppl just say hey, dont feel so sad and stuff. But no one really understands. They have their life, their life is almost perfect. but maybe not. I don't know. My life is volatile like a yo-yo.

But really GOD has brought me through these times even when I felt ditched. I cried out to God so many times. Yet He never rejected me or turned a deaf ear to me. Why? Because He loves me. And I surely know that. My sole confidante is GOD and Him alone!

All I wanna do now is just worship Him and stuff. I wanna go to church too! I dunno but every time I step in there, I just sense God's presence overwhelming me .. (: I love church.

So anyway, March - April was like a total change/switch for me. I dunno why. But things changed so much. I let go of some friends and made new ones. At first, it felt bad but later it became okay. I accepted and stuff. But now, I dunno I just want some back. Specifically this person. She used to care for me a lot. Not that she was my best friend. She was just always there for me. I mean even though I didn't really always want to talk to her, but like her smses and stuff were just comforting and it really made me know someone out there actually cared for me. She was the one who kinda made me wake up and just really start to learn to rely on God. I am quite sure God used her to like tell me to kinda just rely on Him completely. You might read this. You might not. But you've been such an awesome friend to me that I don't want to let go of this. We haven't gone our separate ways but we just aren't that close anymore. I hope we will just become closer again. ILY!

I feel quite different now. Like I dunno. I'm just drifting somewhere, just somewhere where no one knows. I'm just drifting. and drifting. and drifting. I feel empty. lost. and I just really need someone to talk to me. I dunno who its gonna be. But I hope, I hope there'll be someone.

bye for now.

2009-06-17T00:13:00.003+08:00

GOD I luv you A LOT<3>
Thanks for bringing me through all the difficult times & for always being there for me when I needed you(:

Hello! I'm back after a long long time. Anyways, loads of stuff have happened(: Went for family holiday which was GOOD! Good time of bonding as a family and it was just really nicee(: Bought clothes and handbells shoes(: and yah. haha. Last day, we went to visit parents' friends. The food was really good. loved the stew(: And met one of their daughters who was really friendly to us. She's called Gracia(: She's kinda nice, haha. So before we went there, I actually remembered this guy called Timothy. I have no idea why. I know when I was P1 I kept playing with him. I think I was crazy then but yeah. So I was thinking "Hey, I'm gonna see him hahahaha". But, I was really wrong manz. He's totally changed and he looks like his brothers and he wears contacts and I wasn't even sure if it was him or his brothers-.-" Oh wells.. LOL. I think this trip was really good because my family really bonded quite a fair bit and just like depended on God a lot. I dunno but I felt it or maybe it was just me cos I changed and I committed and relied on God a lot this trip, esp. safety and all. Praise be to God that we came back safely, unharmed and did not get swine flu and all. PRAISE BE TO GOD FOREVER!<3

So Monday, Daddy took leave. Mummy woke me up and told me I had piano o.O I was like what duh.. but oh wells. So after piano lesson went to eat then so qiao, da gu and san gu came so they joined us for lunch. Then we brought them to "ji de chi" the dessert place which is the awesomest around(: Then, came back. After that, Daddy asked if I wanted to go cycling cos everyone wanted to go so I was like okay. Cos normally I ride the one with training wheels:p very suck-ish I know. And it's really tiring. So yeah. Went to East Coast Park to cycle. Then, I was sooo scared though Daddy already said he had confidence in me cos I could skate-skoot.

Then Jie taught me a little bit then I could ride le! WHOO:D I finally can ride hahahah. Jie told me last time I could ride even before she could which was like when I was 5 or 6. zzz. Can't remember. Mummy & I learnt how to cycle haha:D GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT but Mummy was like almost going to fall a couple of times. In the end, she fell at the last part:/ And stupid me just carried on cycling cos I was in front so I didn't know. And Jie chased after me all the way. Feel really bad:/ So yeah. Before the cycle back which was when Mummy fell, we went to Bedok Jetty and Daddy & Jie competed like who could balance on the bicycle longer hahahah. took videos. It was really funny then another competition was to get through btw. the bench and the railing, haha. quite fun(: So anyway, really happy I can cycle le!:D

After cycling, Daddy brought us to Long Beach for dinner(: The food is really good(: I loved the geoduck A LOT(: dee-licious! And facing the sea to eat with the breeze. AWESOME NIGHT(: 1st time Mummy is willing to cycle, be happy to do outdoor activity and have dinner by the sea, hahhaa. Monday was AWESOME!:D I love my family(:

Yesterday, I wet swimming at Club. Then, had seafood hor fun. Then, went to Club Library to do some work and use Mummy's mini lappie(: haha quite cool! Then, night went to IMM to look at Jie's SONY lappie. Was about to buy but she was so picky about specks of dust and dots of dirt so didn't-.-" Ooh. I bought Roti Mum(: Dee-licious! I ate one there hahahah.

This Saturday is busybusybusy manz. I'm fully packed. I'm gonna rush almost everywhere. Hectic. God will help me pull through(: Sorry for the super long update but if you've read until here, thanks for your patience(: K nights(: It's actually morning of Wednesday so I talking in terms of Wednesday morning, LOL.

Nights(:

2009-06-10T00:01:00.004+08:00

Eloi Eloi!
GOD you reign forever<3

Heya! I'm back! hahaha. nothing much. but yeah, today just slacked a lot and chatted a lot and just lazed around cos I was super extremely bored. Today, talked to Adelaine for quite some time(: She's one of the sweetest people around(: She's super cute lah. haha. Gonna help her do up her blog properly soon(: haha.

Esther and Liurong are quite funny too(: hahahhaa. And guess what? Nikki remembers me! like omg. fellow PAT'S schoolhouse mates:) have to meet up with her when she comes back from HK which is I dunno when-.-" But anyways, jiayous Nikki!:D Hope to see ya soon!

One of the awesomest songs is: GRATITUDE by Nichole Nordeman!

Send some rain, would You send some rain?
'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...

(Chorus)

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain

Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case..

(Chorus)

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread

Oh, the differences that often are between
What we want and what we really need

So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case...

(Chorus)

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace

But Jesus, would You please...

Yay! The lyrics are there! Moving lyrics(: I love the song(: Okay. Eloi Eloi by Joce has very meaningful lyrics too. But I'm too lazy to type it out haha.

Anyways, I've been talking so much about it but I haven't put it into action so I guess it's time that I do so...got no guts. sighs. I will have to do it for God(: so yeah have to put myself together and put into ACTION:D

Okay, you know what? As I looked through all my super old posts like 2007/2008 posts, it was like all very sadsad one (well not all, but most) and really just about mundane stuff and it was really like what's happening in my life and the childish naiive-ness is like clearly seen! I guess I've grown more like with God and I don't post those stuff anymore. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but anyhow, I hope things will get better(:

It's currently okay(: In balance and stuff .. I'm contented:) okay.. gtg sleep now(: tata.

Love God, Love People, Go Change The World,
charis(:

P.S. you can go and see my archives and see like the total difference but its still interesting to see my old posts hahahahah.

2009-06-07T14:50:00.004+08:00

A God who answers our prayers in His timing(:
ILY GOD<3

Hey! Sry for not posting for quite long again...zzzz. nvm. I always start off by saying that. So...1 week has boomeranged past. So fast. I can't stand it. I wish things could move slower. Anyways, I think nobody actually reads my dead blog. I want people to read, sheesh. nvm.

Okay.. so yesterday was omega funn, we made lemon squares and chocolate slices. mhm. yum! lemon squares were nicer for me because I don't fancy chocolate. Anyways, I dunno how to finish so much. It's a lot. really. Today Cheryl was like did you forget your chocolate slice, then I was a bit stunned. I brought home what, why I got extra. Then, when I came home I realised that yesterday someone asked if those she was carrying were esther, mine and [i forgot who], then esther say yes, then I told her it's not mine!! then she say they will know-.- Then end up got extra zzz. I think it was supposed to be Theresa's. haha. Feel quite paiseh cos Cheryl brought it in a nice bag some more. haha. now she has to bring it back home and eat it, HAHAHA.

Well, yesterday I almost couldn't come like cos mum said I really have to buck up on weak subjects so I was really sad. Like super afraid cannot go. Dad helped me ask through the week but it didn't work, she just said NO, like really firm NO. And being my mum, it's really hard to change her decision once she's made it. So I prayed like during lunch then if it is God's will, let me go lah. So Dad asked and SURPRISINGLY, she said YES. omg. I was overjoyed. Like WOW. God's so amazing, He never fails us, and I guess He knew that I wanted to chill out and all. yep. All praise be unto God!<3

Oh, I forgot to say about the baking part. Well, our group had 4 people, others had 2 so we made double portions. Quite cool(: Well, kinda made new friends(: And like my group was Vic, Jas and Kang. Yeah, they were quite friendly and stuff. I think most of the mixing was done by Vic & Kang cos Jasmine and me are like not very good at such stuff. But it was still funn(:

Today, CG was soso lah, just that idk why, but Linda was kinda staring at me and she seemed in pain, idk why. Hope things will be better for CG(:

I really need to focus and finish up my work..sighs..I will manage my time well..or rather I have to! Charis, STOP being a slacker! ..

Okay, today naughty Joyce wanted to take random photo of me .. luckily, she didn't manage to(: I ran away then was close to Esther then she poke her face next to mine zzz-.-" so had to take lorhz.. hha. monsther quite funny. And Joyce a bit crazy today, she went to wear Ben's slipper for 1 side, and walk around with one side black, and one side white then still tell me someone stole her slipper-.-" lame lahh Joyce!

Okay, gtg finish up my work(: Tata! God Bless(:

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA!!! 6th June..

2009-05-30T20:01:00.002+08:00

Everlasting, Unfailing GOD<3
I stand in awe(:

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

I know I've been tardy with updating my blog. Anyway, this week is tiring/hurting/pleasing/... the list goes on. Mixed feelings and stuff. I know I've been wavering a lot. I've been hurting so much inside me and yet I continue to forgive, no one ever realises that. When they're angry, they expect an apology but when I'm hurt and stuff, they care less. Well, I guess I really need someone to be my real friend. I've really gone from bad to worse. And I'm forgiving them again for like the millionth time. That's exaggerated but oh how it hurts.

Today's LIVE! was surprisingly good(: I went there like with so many things ont he back of my mind and I was super anxious and all, worrying about whether I could go for party after that or not. I really tried to act like myself though I was really stoning just sitting there. And my heart really hurt so much. It's really like one minute everything was fine and the next it was all gone. emptiness. Well, worship started and I really couldn't focus at all. It was like I was worrying like crazy. Then, it really occurred to me that I have to really cast all my burdens on God and He will really help me. So when they prayed in the middle of worship and yeah, asked us to reflect and stuff, I dunno why but I suddenly started breaking down for no reason. It was like all the pain was letting go and stuff. And I uttered like a prayer to worship Him and ask Him to remove all worries/fears and all. Then, continued worship and stuff and I was still tearing a little. After that, I started to really worship God and started to focusing on Him. Then, lifted my hands up and I felt so relaxed and at peace suddenly and really just lost myself in worship, yeah. Thank God. After that was sermon by Pastor Daniel Chua, quite good. It was to sit, walk & stand for Christ! yep. I was kinda like smsing dad to check if mum allowed me to go for party during sermon. He told me mum wasn't happy so I decided like on the spot that I'm not gonna make mum unhappy and I should honor my parents as it is one of the ten commandments so yes I did. I told dad I wouldn't go. At first, I felt a lil' sad but then after a while, I was quite proud of myself that I obeyed my parents and made them happy(: Closing song was good. yep. "I do not need to see it to belive it" really worshipped God(: worship totally spoke to me today. I loved it. This is one of the awesomest services I've ever gone to.

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Okay, well God is seriously awesomezzz!!! <3>

Anyways, ROCs was quite funn but tiring. Our group won for the Task 6 thingy. Yeah, quite cool. I know everyone only cares about the model and stuff. It's always like that. And the person who goes on stage yahyah. It always happens but I'm still glad that we won(: thanks(: we made it!

Tomorrow got CG and stuff, it's gonna be an awesome day!! Must think positive(: kays, tata for now.

Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
CHARISH<3

2009-05-24T22:43:00.004+08:00

Father Lord,
I surrender solely & completely to you:D
Use me, Mould me, Lead me, Walk beside me, I give my life to the Potter's Hand(:

Life has been pretty much okay. Exams are over but loads of assignments to do...& I'm getting physically drained out. It really seems that everyone is just sliding away from me. It's like in a whoosh it's all gone. I'm kinda sad. But yeah, maybe it's partly me. On Friday, I dunno why but I got super angry at them and yeah, I think I just lost myself. But I realised I was suffering
inside me and if I just continued like that, I would be the one suffering so I committed everything to God and yeah, asked Him for self-control and after a while, I really felt like not so angry at them and treated them like normal again.Thank God, really. I guess now I need to take a step back, maybe I've been taking advantage of some people or maybe both sides have changed. I don't
know. But all I'm gonna do is just commit this whole thing to God and really hope it works(: I really don't want to tell the person in the face but oh how it hurts inside...

Okay, maybe that sounded emo but that's really true. Anyways, week before last week had LIVE! yay! Sermon was good. Our motto is "Love God, Love People, Go & Change the World" that's really true and as I just sat there listening to him talk about how many confirmations they got on the motto and how it actually IS in the bible, I was just amazed. It sounded so real and yes, now I'm
trying to do the second part, Love People. Sometimes I do find it difficult to love the unlovable but since God created them, I really should. So yep, I'm trying and I'm also trying a little bit of the go change the world part but it's not carried out yet. I'll need help in that. Okay, that's for LIVE! Today's CG was quite okay luhh. Meant to be birthday surprise for Vic but it didn't work out:( Quite sad. I was kinda expecting it, haiz. But anyways, I guess she was quite happy with the stuff we gave her. And thanks Linda for the cake and all the stuff you provided!(:

To my dearest friend:"There seems to be a gap between us now. I dont know why but I sense it. Every time I ask something, you just answer and I'm really just afraid there's something really wrong. I guess both of us has changed. But I'm clinging on and I hope you would to. We'll soon be back together and support each other I hope. Keeping you in prayer(:" -Charis

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The top part is all what I typed quite some time ago.

UPDATED :

hmm..last week has been really hectic and I was thoroughly drained out. had quite a few Handbells practices. And loads of assignments. Yep, all last minute and stuff. Every day, I just struggled to complete them. Al least, now it's all over. This week is ROCs and tomorrow we are going to Old School site:D and walk down the "100 steps" It's gonna be cool. I'm looking forward to
it.

LIVE! was okay. It was apt. yep. Only at the last part did I feel God's presence but yeah overall it was good(: Next week, LIVE! party:D whoots! Hope I can go(: hmm. today's CG was very disciplined. It was apt and good(: Linda can control the class now and that's good(:

So many events happening in Term 3, esp. for Handbells. persevere. God, pls bring me through this period even as I am gonna be so busy in Term 3.okay...I think this post is so crappy. Anyway, I'm trying my best to read qi tian fastt. But to no avail:( Okay..hope I can go for Spikenardz too:D

Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
Charis(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE!!! :D 23rd May
thanks for vbeing a nicee friend(: all the best in everything that you do(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!! :D
thanks for being so kind and nice to me(: get well soon(:

2009-05-09T16:09:00.003+08:00

"there's something that won't let me stop." - quoted from Charlie Gordon -
ALL PRAISE BE TO GOD! He works in magnificent ways(:

Heya! I'm so extremely xian because history is really irritating. You have to mug 3 chapters and only 2 friggin' questions come out, like!?! haiz... Mind-mapping is kinda funn I should say(: but quotes for lit. are still bombarding me. That's the reason why the quote is up there by Charlie Gordon!!! eeks.

Moving on to the brighter side on life, common tests has been wrecking my brains and burning all my brain cells. YAY! 3 more to go and I'm FREE at last(: I've been mugging so much and all, mainly because I've been slacking so much and just do super last-minute revision. Very bad example. Anyways, finally there's a long weekend. I think I slacked way too much yesterday:( Hope that won't affect the time I have let to study...

Well, today I'm kinda glad that I was able to show some sort of help although it wasn't even helpful cos I'm such a blurrblob.
It goes like that...I was at Swensen's waiting to wash my hands.
Indian lady whose friend was inside the toilet talked to me.
"There's someone inside the toilet so wait for a while." *smiles at me*
*nods and mutters okay*
"Oh, do you live around here?"
*getting suspicious and panicky* "Why?"
"Do you know where Balmond road is?"
"Erm no. Sorry." *feels guilty*
"You live around here?"
"Yah."
"And you don't know where it is?"
*shakes head helplessly*
"I heard that I overshot it, it's in that direction I heard." *points in direction*
*gives her the blurr look*
-long silence-
"Sorry arh girl, wait so long."
"It's okay."
-washes hands-
*pushes door open and holds it for her*
"Thank you!"

This conversation with her was kinda funny. Like I was given the opportunity to help but I just couldn't. Well, I guess it isn't really like showing help but yeah. Unusual experience. And actually the person she was talking about was my mum I found out. Cos my mum went to the toilet to wash hands first-.-" Then she asked my mum. LOL. Anyways, I had been praying about having the opportunity to extend a helping hand in a way but it never did happen so after a while, I kinda forgot about it but yeah. God never forgets and never fails us. He has his timing(:

Talking about God's timing, I would like to talk about something even though it was quite some time ago, I think this is amini testimony(: X didn't want to talk to me last year cos of some disputes and blah. I kept on praying and praying like for the first half of year but it never did happen but instead became worst, I tried not to loose hope but after a while it seemed normal so I couldn't be bothered and stopped praying. At the end of last year, she really said sorry and admitted her wrong and all. My heart was overwhelmed. I had forgotten about this completely and those earnest prayers of mine were answered by God's grace(: PERSEVERE. God always keeps His promises that He will always answer our prayers, so we just have to believe that it will happen and continue to interceed for it. It's God's timing, NOT OURS! I think God was really testing my patience. But I think I failed it, so I'm on this new journey and I'm persevering. Maybe God's giving me a second chance to prove myself and I SHALL(: This time this new journey is totally different, a new dimension and a definitely tougher one. I'm gonna overcome it! He made this happen to me for a reason, DEFINITELY. It was not by chance or coincidence! If you want me to share with you more, I can(: But I think it shouldn't be so explicitly put here, haha. GOD is just amazing. I know He's always by my side, and will never leave you nor forsake you as He promised(: Somehow, I feel that God always does things when you least expect it, kinda cool(:

Common tests are generally okay, just that I really think I flunked Biology but everything's in God's hands. I shouldn't be worrying(: At peace(: I wrote super long for Lit. essay yesterday haha. My hand was aching like crazy after that hehe.

Denise was super funny today. She tried to suprise me but I think it didn't work out. HAHA. She wanted to suprise me with Hershey's we were going to share together for recess. hehe. It was definitely delicious Denise(: Thanks for the lil' treats which includes your awesomely-baked cookies(: We ate the almond one and the cookies n cream one. 2 packs 0.0 so I think each of us took approx. 1/3 of the 2 packets of it. hahahaha. yummy:D

Last night, I was just chatting to Grace and she said I'm an interesting person, haha.Serious and cranky at the same time and my actions are unpredictable haha. Well, quite true I should say. I get totally serious and worked up when there's a time limit to things and all. Then get a bit too tensed up, Denise thinks I'm too stressed, that's why she gave me hershey's hahahaha. Then, I can also get super hyper when I'm like I dunno, not really tensed up haha.

I think I really need a friend whom I can be seriously frank with. It's hard but it's good to have someone like that. I'm hoping. Hmmm...it's really hard to share your darkest secrets with someone even though she may be close to you. It's still hard because she may criticise you and all and won't dare to open up anymore. I want someone who will be open and both of us will listen to what each other has to say. HOPE. BELIEVE. TRUST.

I know I'm really trying to control my emotions. It's just beneath everything. I really wish it wouldn't happen this week. At least after Common Tests please. I know I've poured it out to a few people who do care for me, at least to a certain extent. Yep, and I'm feeling better. I know I shouldn't be worrying. Esther says its hard to manage between that and studies and I really agree with that. Just hope God will help me(: Bring me through these tough times that I face now(:

Okay, this post is rather long. But I think it's one which has some important stuff in it, haha. Hope you liked this post, LOL. Anyways, all the best for the remaining CTs!!!:D byebye(:

2009-05-02T20:26:00.012+08:00

my heart RINGS FOR THE JOY OF THE LORD(:
my soul SINGS HIS NAME OUT LOUD(:
my mind FOCUSES ON HIM(:
my mouth THANKS HIM FOR HIS CONTINUAL GUIDANCE AND ANSWERS TO OUR PRAYERS(:

HELLO everyone(: my heart is just dancing but my eyes are drooping.

I can't contain my excitement. But MG handbells seriously rocks socks manz! :D
GOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLD:D and the motto is : Ringing for the Joy of the Lord(: this is soo true(:
I am omega happy for them:D at first first few schools got silver then we were all super tensed up then hear GOLD then super happy hahaha. No one got bronze or GWH, either Silver or Gold so I guess we are pretty good(: on parr with RG and SCGS(: SCGS is super good lahh. I've always looked up to them cos they are uber good. you so can't deny that. hehe.

Okay, I'm mentally and physically tired, I really dunno but it seems my bedtime is like so standard, and that sucks cos I always sleep like 12 these days and never get good rest. I'm kinda tired. Nowadays, everytime I go to school I just sleep on my desk, super tired lahh and ALWAYS sleep on the bus. Mugging time is like NOW. And yeah. I'm not supposed to be here. So I'm gonna be off soon. But yeah.

I thought and thought and thought. Mum and Dad says the computer is distracting and it should be off. I was really thinking. And yes, that is so true. Everytime I switch on the com, I just never get off it, like glued onto it. Very bad. Then waste super a lot of time. So yeah.

And today actually I wanted to go for spikenardz and there was like a mini war going on inside me. So yeah. I prayed to God. And then asked parents then they said no but I guess I did make use of that time to study(: And it wasn't that bad after all. But I am so going for the next spikenardz:D next week got LIVE! but I don't think I can go. Depends. I'm gonna pray to God again. because God has planned everything out so perfectly for us already so we just need to seek Him for guidance:D i heart God so much(:

i really gotta go now, byee(:
P.S. most probably I'll only post after CTs.

2009-04-28T21:53:00.004+08:00

Lord, you're awesome(:
You keep me safe in this crazy world(:

Hey everyone! Of course, you know I haven't been posting mainly because I have no mood plus my internet connection's stability sucks. One minute its here, the next its gone. So anyway, many things have happened but I'll just type whatever I can remember and of course more recent.

Hmm...LIVE! was goodie(: i heart it so much! I mean like meeting God is awesome(: Pastor Isaiah was good. He talked about how to fulfill our God-given dreams and about how he converted from Muslim to Christianity. It was an awesome testimony:D Indeed, he's a living testimony:D Then, service ended late so yah. Jie called me to see where I was then we agreed to meet at bus-stop then walk in together haha. Waited for her quite long, lol. Anyway, we walk in then talk super a lot haha. Once in a blue moon(: good fellowship(: Oh, I forgot to say bus is super problematic lah. When I go to church, it broke down so reached church just on time, heng arh... then, come back, I wave then other people wave then they went up the bus and I didn't cos driver close the door already. Wahh, I was super pissed lahh. THen luckily it came in like 30 sec!!!:D omg. I was super happy and this is really by God's grace(: If not, maybe I have to wait for another 15 more min. So at first it overtook the first one then later still behind haha. Besides the point-.-" God is just always so faithful:D

Suddenly, I feel that I kinda like physics. Spasm! haha. but if you ask me to do physics paper, nahh. I dun like hahaha. Anyways, last week was kinda crappy lahh. But yes, God brought me through it all and I thank God so much. Now I feel super guilty. I haven't been doing qt for quite some time. I think I'll do today.

I think I am starting to realise that life is really CHOICES. I mean everything is to do with CHOICES. Like when you wake up in the morning, you can choose to go back to sleep or get up. That's a choice! And simple things like that all make up what you are doing. Its like every choice you make, you move one step further or maybe backward. Of course no good to step backward so yeah. Now, I'm so going to study cos CTs are next week!!! I've gotta mug!!! Charis, you can do it(: Jiayous.

Tomorrow got to go for some swim finals thing so yeah. Its until 6!!! haiz...kinda wasting time but yeah its good to support(: 6608 class partay is on friday. hmmm....I don't think I can go. Maybe go for 1 or 2 hours...I'm not sure lahh. Cos I need to study like seriously... Its kinda smack when exams are super near. So it sucks. Have another gathering puh-lease. June would be much better(:

Okay, I really gotta go study now and do work, etcetc. That's all for now(: I'm kinda sad I can't go for spikenardz:( pfft. I so wanna go. Exams spoil my plans:( grrr... frustrating...ooh I've got an idea. Shall go consult my mum. See if it works...LOL. byebye(:

P.S. There is some problem with my blog...it repeats itself twice, as in the posts are repeated twice...ignore. thanks(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEXINE!!! 28th April(:

2009-04-14T16:48:00.004+08:00

i'm leaning on you God,
i <3 you Lord! times infinity:D

Heya! Haven't posted for ages but yeah. I shall now. hmmm. time flies so fast. and i've got a milllion things to say so i'll try to put them all in(:

Holy Week:D
Monday - Wednesday: DJW! it was awesome(: just that its a little dead...
Friday: Good Friday service! It was good i guess. But the speaker was a bit boring. I wanted to sleep:p
Saturday: LIVE! it was awesome too(: Jeremy's sharing was good(: remember to REACH OUT to God because He is always beside you so just REACH OUT:D
Sunday: Resurrection Day! whee:D no cg so slept more. then service was quite good.

i think this is considered a testimony but yeah anyway. so God spoke to me 3 times like during holy week(: He gave me the same verse like exactly! it was miraculous and all:D one of them was like a note which i read during the course of the holy week.

Jeremiah 29:11-13 - For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

awesome verse(: then i was doing qt that night then it was on the front of my journal! so miraculously cool:D thanks you know who for the verse you wrote on the cover page!

I guess maybe God made me go through all this for a reason and that's why I've stopped worrying and left everything to God. I think things are working out much better(: i hope it will be better! God works in miraculous ways:D I'm learning to lean on God in all circumstances! Be solely dependent on Him and not worry so much(: thanks for all the awesome people who asked me whether i was okay and all(: i really appreciate it! when you unexpectedly ask, that really warms my heart and really makes me feel that you care! just thanks so much to all who did ask me about it or comfort me! love you all<3

And yes, the long weekend was really memorable! went church for all 3 days. and i've started to like church! i mean when i go to church, like all or rather most of my burdens are like gone kinda thing but of course they come back lah. then family bonding:D thank God for my omega awesome family:D one night, we went starbucks after dinner and it was so funn cos we played the 'boggle' game on my sis' iTouch as a family! it's so cool! wahaha. i beat my dad!maybe he's just slow at such techno stuff cos he's always very good at boggle, heh. anyway, i gtg now. byee:D

2009-04-05T15:31:00.002+08:00

the feeling of emptiness is sinking in:'(
help me oh God!

to ______: i don't feel like talking to you sometimes. i feel you've changed, or maybe it's just me. i don't want to open up to you anymore because you don't either. and somehow, i kinda lost my trust in you for i dunno what reason but yeah. i feel that i'm faking to you like crap inside me when i talk to you. it sounds stupid but its true. i hope things will get better. it will take some time but i'll wait. i don't think you meant it so i don't blame you but somehow my attitude towards you has changed recently because you seem to be treating me differently.

the feeling of emptiness is sinking in again and i really hate it. i don't know whyy. you know i look at other people and i admire them cos they have so many friends, so many BFFs and all. i mean i don't get jealous lah but it just dawns upon me like how they fake so much to have so many friendship problems when actually they have such awesome friends. it's stupid, i don't get the point.

i just wanna be back at church now even though i just came back not too long ago. i mean there, you can like talk with people who are really awesome. i mean i dun know if they are faking but to me, they are just really encouraging and nice. today CG was a little boring, we played cranium, as in my group. then another group played blokus so yeah. supposedly for bonding but it didn't work out i think. 2nd service worship was awesome. i really felt i could really worship God today. and the 'to you' song is really nice(: Simon's prayer was good. to be an ambassador for Christ and to give up our lives for God and let God control our lives kinda thing. anyways, i can't describe very much now cos i'm just feeling quite empty.

i really need someone to help me. it's just so difficult. people's perspectives are so volatile. it changes almost every day! i'm dying in this little world of mine.

2009-04-04T19:48:00.003+08:00

happy, happy, happy:D
thank you God for making me feel HAPPY:D

HELLO(: i'm finally HAPPY after such a loong time. really thank God!:D this feeling is awesome(: came back from spikenardz not too long ago. it was awesome(: topic was saltish HAHA.

Sacrifice
Authentic
Love in Action (Compassion)
Today!

yep. and we have to do/be all that to be the salt of the world(: summary in 4 points:

1. A Sprinkle of Sacrifice
2. A Dash of Authenticity
3. A Dollop Full of Love
4. Blend Today!

and my, i forgot the verse, ahhh...but yeah, spikenardz was awesome(: haha. thanks esther for bugging me to go, really aprreciate it:D and Victoria for telling me not to be lazy, hehe. anyways, worship was good. i love the 2 songs: till i see you & to you. who is 'to you' composed by? idk. PLS TELL ME IF YOU KNOW. thanks(: when we sang till i see you, i think God really impressed upon me like to live to love Him, to bring Him praise and to live a child in awe of Him (those are the lyrics haha). anyways, the drink was cool! but i didn't like the salt:( joyce and i didn't like it but esther said it was nice, so weird, she finished all the salt around the rim! o.o then after linda shared, broke into discussion groups, feel very paiseh for not answering the questions haha. didn't know what to say....sorry. and yah, charmaine brought up the question about whether we are being fake in church, finding difficulty in being our true selves in church. this really got me thinking. i fake to be someone i'm not truly inside me. in church, in school, i mean wherever, i guess the only place i don't really fake is HOME. i mean i guess it's the same for everyone. cos we have to fake to be like sociable, cool and whatever not, those are just egs. and Cheryl brought up a good point on whether we even know who we are. she said that maybe we just fake ourselves everywhere we go, maybe even at home! and hence, we do not even know who we reallly are! so, WHO ARE YOU? the real you. seriously...that also got me thinking. today a lot of ppl came(: both my CGLs came! quite cool and they sat next to each other...thanks all for making me feel welcomed haha(: really enjoyed it! i will try my best to go next time!:D

okay...erm i shall stop talking about spikenardz hehe. TPC was okayy luhh. but i have to meet miss ng and mr tan:( mum says i can't just be neat i must be good but now, i don't think i'm that neat-.-" p4-p6 handwriting was much nicer just that it was BIG and FAT. hahaha. anyways, being the slacker, i didn't finish my homework yesterday. so i'm gonna finish up now, hopefully!(:

2009-04-03T20:41:00.002+08:00

regret. sorry. pls forgive mee....

so yah, really regret not going out with fam. they kept on pestering me to go but i didn't, i really thought i had lots of work but no. sighs. i'm sorry for disappointing you all, dad & mum! i didn't mean to:( really extremely sorry, i guess dad & mum gave up asking me to go, really isn't my day:( i just really extremely wanted to go for spikenardz tomorrow. i'm desperate! i'll finish all my work as much as possible. and esther, you'd better appreciate it that i am going(: cya there:D

anyway, todayyy chinese was quite funn. the video was stupid. and i look like a duck!!! ahhh...but yeah. the process was quite funn. many thanks to janice(: i give you something another time kay? sorry for last min stuff and all...thanks mir for the seaweed and kitkat for prizes(:

handbells was okay luhh...quite boring but my hand was aching like xiao after that stupid thumb damp song! hate that song! i stretch my muscle A LOT! i hope ______ quits, she's pissing me. pouncing on me, etcetc. it's freaking irritating/annoying. i know you are thinking about quitting, so if you hate it, just quit! i mean like seriously.

this week is sooo crappy. seriously. mundane. just the routine. i'm feeling super drained out now, always falling asleep in the bus these days. haiz...need to catch some rest! and finish my omega a lot school homework if not can't go spikenardz, actually i misunderstood, mum said no need but whatever lahh. stilll gonna go...bye!

2009-04-01T22:15:00.006+08:00

did you put me through this for a purpose?
thanks so much if you did, i've learnt(:

only one word can describe how i'm feeling now.

HURT.

last week was crap, really crap, sorry for "vulgar" but yah. it was just within me. it was unbearable. and i think i really learnt to forgive...thanks mir(: much appreciated(: i've got a billion things to say but i'll stop here. i've no mood to type anymore.

"thanks for everything"

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Birthday stuff(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING YAN!<3>
thanks for being omega awesome, i owe you loads(: loves.

2009-03-26T18:17:00.005+08:00

the mah-loo day?
sighs...embarrassing...

an overall unhappy post. i should say. so go awayy if you aren't interested!

Okay, so hmmm i've got a billion things to type so i'll just go as it flows. just came back from crappy CIP! urgh. i sacrificed and it really ended up just nowhere! i dunno whyy. my decision was stupid but someone had to do it i know:( everyone got to play basketball except me. sighs. im sorry being so grumbly but yes, i feel left out. really. anyway, so i hear that the SBC Lecture was interesting and pfft. i couldn't go! i soooo wanted to go! urgh! gahh....so todayyy in school, i think i mah-looed myself A LOT mann.
1. during philo it was like ms yang ask us to act like our great thinker, mine was Abraham Lincoln. Sooo...when i went in front, she was like what's yr name? then i said i am abraham lincoln then she said no, yr name! then i was like OH! then did whole class burst out laughing, so mahh-loo lahh.
2. then during chinese, i ask laoshi where to find that part in the psg, then he was like here! then i was like omg so blind. aiyo, i so bad at finding stuff!!! ahhh...mah-loo again but not so bad haha.
3. then did gym routine and mah-loo again. i screwed up cos direction of audience was changed so i didn't know where to go for handstand. mahh-loo. sry guys. i feel kinda bad but i hope it wasn't that bad. and i didn't do the handstand cos i was scared to fall in a film, haiz...

SS was like we presented the brochure for cowpox yeah. it's unfair in a way. not elaborating here. youu cann ask me by yrself. im just pissed, seriously pissed. im sorry that the brochure wasn't nice but i did my best and you ppl have no idea what i went thru'. glad its over and gym routine! its over too! what a relief!(: oh, and todayy, mrs hor decided to give my grp toblerone for winning 2nd in the game. cos we were like 1/2 a min later than the other grp. whoots:D

Yesterday --> i guess i really lost my trust in A LOT of ppl. or maybe its just me. but i thought it was possible and suddenly everyone just turned their back. oh! don't really understand ms ng, supposed to elect 5, she only elect 2-.-" "report
card" got back. quite okay? except for languages. and class positions. quite suprised haha. BUT when my dad saw my report "card" he was like whyy you so happy? yr results aren't that good you know? i was like :( but yeah when he heard my class position he was not so tensed. haiz...but if i go 1T, i'll be like not so good hahaha.

Now, I really have to go do lots of stuff. like i dunno. bucking up. haha. byee(:
anyone going for CSS this monday? (:

OH! i forgot birthdays again!!! ahhh! memory failure!!!D:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANTAL! (: (23rd March)
all the best in yr studies! hahaha. and thanks for the awesome kinder bueno(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER! :D (25th March)
thanks for being omega awesome!!! haha and for all the advice! see ya this sunday! and you don't disppear horh. hehe:D

2009-03-20T21:28:00.005+08:00

no turning back, no turning back:(

THE CHOICE!
the choice i made,
was it a wise one?
wishing i could turn back time and say,
NO!
its too late!

my life a dilemma,
why do you always want me to be so good?
maybe i haven't tried my best,
but maybe i have.

giving me a chance?
No you aren't!
am i pretending to be who i am not?
sorry.

acting? playing? emoing?
i'm utterly sorry.
trying to be who i really am is tough,
i must admit.

who i really am,
is not what you think i am,
who am i? who am i?
not who you think i am... (:

That's just a little poem that kind of sums up what I'm feeling, saying and all. HAHA. Anyways, poetry slam was quite funn I must admit. hehe. Now, I have more confidence in my poems(: love poems noww, dun know whyy...I'm really regretting the choice I made just quite some time ago...sighs. I'll never be able to turn back and it'll be so embarrassing...I'm sorry! Everything just seems wrong in its own way. I'm just sooo sorry for crapping that whole paragraph on you in the prev. post. It wasn't crap, it was true. It was really how I felt towards youu inside me. But now, I feel so badd for doing that to youu, and at the same time, I'm happy that I let it out. stupid as it seems, yeah that's how I feel. Its like there's a war going on, controlling all my emotions and whatever not. Haiz...

So todayy, went to gym for morning workout. Not bad....1.8km on treadmill, most of it walking fast, haha. Erm, cycling 1.6km. Sit-ups --> 30. Did some weirded leg pushes thingy, LOL. Yah, that was my exercise then just slacked lahh. HAHA. then had piano. super crappish. BLEH. tomorrow is jie's graduation, won't be missing it, whoots!(: no hua!:D yesterday --> mum's bday was awesome mann! err...did ISO stuff-.-" for almost the whole day then went out for omega nicee dinner(: then had an awesome night walk! loved it! (: took lovely pics...might post it up on fb when jie uploads it...Sunday --> movie with jie! Hotel for Dogs was quite nice luhh, I should say but I feel like watching Despareaux (dunno how to spell), LOL. nvm.

Now, I really can't believe I'm like so interested in a chinese book! Anyway, I read it 3 days, well actually not, 2 and a bit cos I only read 6 pages in the afternoon then night then read a lot. LOL. I'm kinda done with it. The back part is boring cos its just like extra info that the author wrote after writing the actual story. Its really nice and interesting but I need to do the speech noww, bleh...and still have to read 6 crappy English books!!! lalala.

Holidays for me is boring...everyone is choinging hw now except me, boohoo:( tomorrow is yay day! slack again...no luhh, got tuition. but daddy might bring me out to go bowling:D whoots! rejoicing in my heart(: This reminds me of the song --> Rejoicing(: its an awesome song...if u wanna hear, cann ask me cos its composed by my church<3>

Oh ya, pls do the quiz that I made of fb! The link is on my status(: hahaha. And noww, I really can't believe yaya papaya got 33% only!?! LOL. She's just blurr. hehe. Gtg get to work and buck up, remember?(: BYEBYE(:

2009-03-17T20:19:00.003+08:00

is it me? or is it them?
lost in a whirlwind that no one can ever understand:(

I hate to say this, but yes, I need to let it out. Can you seriously STOP staring at me and saying, "Oh that's all? Huh?" as if you're expecting something else to come out of me. And seriously STOP trying to exclude me in everything that you do! This has been hitting inside me like crazy, I never really thought you would be like that. But I'll still give you more chances because you still treat me nice at some points in time but not when I see you in ______. Please correct me if I'm wrong. But I really can't take it.

I've been feeling extremely weird these days, I dunno whether its just me or is it them. Anyways, todayyy was omg funn:D We met up for Chinese then so xian but we finished it in good time luhh. Then, had gym meet-up. Injuries:( I think I flipped too hard and like fell half body on stairs:( Ouch! Gahh, I thought I was going to die or something but luckily never luhh. haha. And Janice feel on her elbow...Sighs. So we gave up and I dunno who started playing limbo and had a competition HAHA. And now, my back is aching from it:( Then, we played jumping over the string, like very high, hahaha. Huimin! Whyy are you so good at these games? haha. Brilliant! She won for both games, hehe. Of course, we camwhored for funn, haha. And I dunno whyy, but Wei Ling kept banging her head on the floor and saying Ouch! when she wanted to do the forward roll-.-" Even after I told her it isn't feasable to do the momentum thingy before the forward roll cos the mat was too thin. LOL. Anyway, todayy was awesome(:

Tomorrow, I have to go to school so I have to sleep early tonight. *yawn yawn* I'm feeling sleepy now, no idea whyy. oh noooo...chinese. Sighs, I dun wanna do, gahhh...shall do it now. Bleh...Currently reading Anne Frank, LOL. I know I'm very sloww, haha. Normally ppl read Anne Frank like in P4 or smthg, haha. Nvm. Somehow, I really feel that I don't have a best friend. Or rather, that I can call one. And even if I wanted her to be my best friend, will she actually treat me like hers too? I believe best friends should always be 2 ways. We can share with each other our problems and all. And we can hold hands (not physically), and go through the tough times together. Through thick and thin, we will always be friends forever. HAHA. I'm longing for someone like that. But it did happen some time in my life and then it became bleh. So yah, I hope I can have a friend like that...

Gtg now...LOL. byes...Holidays are boring, pfft. Btw, favourite song for now --> Reign in Us by Starfield. Awesome song(:

2009-03-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

life just flips over all of sudden! whyy?

things in life don't always turn out the way you want them to. that's really sad.

Anyway, yes my life is sooo URGH! these days and I'm kinda really pissed at myself so many numerous things.

1. i don't even have self-control!
2. i flunked my languages like madd luhh, i think only aly did the same, sry i was peeking so see where i stand.
3. Literature wasn't as good as i thought it would be:(
4. i did well for all the weirdest subjects, i don't understand whyy. [but i still thank God(:]
5. i found out i still have to do oral presentation if i go for replacement class...

okayy...only the first 2 are really the reasons but the rest are just grumbles...i want to keel myself already, im so distracted by the com, i can't even complete what i wanted to do, rawr. i still got a few more hours before the day ends so im gonna push myself, hopefully. grrr...Literature was soooo pissing mann. I got quite okay for test but class participation marks. That made me not get an A1, urgh. If I got one mark higher for class participation, I could have gotten A1 lorh...at least, the class participation marks weren't as bad as some other ppl haha. Cos I've been trying to answer some questions in class this year unlike last year haha. It takes a lot of courage to answer questions, I realised hehe. But I've only overcome a little bit, will try harder next term to answer more questions(: That's actually an easy way to score points, LOL. and why mrs chong still never give our geography paper back?:( so incomplete without geog marks.

Oh yes, I thought I flunked Geography paper a lot, but luckily, she told us there were more similarities than differences(: I wrote all similarities and forgot abt differences haha. Phew! I was quite relieved when I heard that hehe. Oh, and guess what? I got full marks for 1 subject haha! jkjk. but actually I'm not sure if music is even a subject hehe. I crapped up the conductor ques and still did well hehe.

I'm always working hard on fridays because I really want to get in. Gahh...and yes, Chelsey! Is that how you spell yr name? I dunno. Anyway, I made a new friend(: talked quite a lot:p She's quite nice but she's sec 3 scholar, so cool right? gee...it's quite fun making new friends but at the thought of them leaving you, it's really sadd mann. This really reminds me of Diane!:( I'm missing her sooo muchh! She's busy with her life and I'm busy with mine so we hardly email or anything. Sighs...I luv her loads mann. Chet too actually, Sri Leap and Leekana! omg...these good memories(: thinking of them, makes me miss them so muchh, i just wanna talk to them now mann...loves.

And yes! I'm done setting up my new mp3! whoots! it has games, i just realised yesterday, heh. CIP went okayy luhh. Wasn't as fun as I thought it would be...but my child was sooo quiet:( and some are so naughty. lol. Oh yes! We are practicing gym on Tues! Yay! I'll get to see them(: and ISO. Huimin! wah lao, now we really really cant even meet up with you. 3 pathetic ppl meeting up:( nvm. We'll still do it. I like Jason Mraz songs now haha. Butterfly and Live High!:D

Luckily, I fulfilled my promise and did the card(: gave to her on Thursday haha. Anyway, I'm really wondering if people just say yes for the sake of saying it and in the end, they don't ever do it...It really hurts me to hear someone say yes, and not do it after all. I think this incident is exaggerated by yeah, I'm pondering about it...Pls mean what you say(: I appreciate that a lot.

Okay, I'm going to do my work now, buck up, etcetc. I think I'll confront the person on why she didn't do what she said she would do later...Okay, I gtg now and exercise self-discipline...

Victoria: whyy are all yr posts these days so like has an inner meaning in the words? Got anything, tell me kay? (: dun so sadsad one these days:)

2009-03-11T17:59:00.004+08:00

is that really who i am?
the girl who flunked her languages...

Heya! Cross-country...gosh. I can't take it! I felt like puking after that, I think I forced myself too much or maybe I'm just not used to running so much. And my stitch too, urgh! But ya, that's only one pathetic thing.

Common Tests!!! I really flunked it mann, especially so for my languages like !?! so frustrated with myself. So what if I passed? Everyone passed too BUT they passed with flying colours and I barely passed!!! I am so gonna buck up like mad. I shouldn't be here but I need to let this out!!! rawr. Holidays give an opportunity to buck up and so I WILL. Its hard to do but I WILL. My compre really sucks. Both English and Chinese. Gragh! Looking at my marks, I almost wanted to cry mann. I really needa buck up. Gonna start now(: And when I told my mum all this, she started telling me that if my languages aren't good, then I would be no where, I mean in uni, so yah, I've decided to really improve my vocabulary and what not.

Sadly, I haven't started up my new mp3 which rocks socks, haha:D I will do it during March holidays too! Project work...so many things to meet up and whyy does everyone want to meet up at my house??? What is so great about it??? Go Huimin's house, rawr. Whoops, I just realised CIP is tomorrow! Whoo! haha. Help the little kids, hehe. They aren't that small anyways-.-" Still excited...(:

I'm currently hooked on to the songs in the face face cd. It rock socks mann:D They are all equally nice, I can't pick one out from the rest haha(: Miranda, thanks for the unglam photo of us todayyy! haha jkjk. But it's quite unglam, nvm. I'm so lazy to upload the photos on my phone to com. Grub! I will soon, sry for making you people wait so long HAHA.

So fed up! My stupid RASH came backk! Shoo! Uber itchy, so I keep on scratching, gahh...I wanna go find out what's the cause of it! This is the 2nd time it is happening this year! Okay...nvm. I'm just talking crap. Gtg now and buck up, rmbr? haha lol. byebye(:

2009-03-09T19:19:00.003+08:00

the whole world just came crashing down:'(
with, no warning...

I feel so glum, dunno whyy:(
I feel so mood-swingy:(
I feel that I have irritated people, sorry...:(
I need to apologise...
I have to exercise self-control...

This seems so weird, all started well todayy, then dunno what happen, just blew up here and there. rawr. I'm frustrated with myself. whyy? charis...control...:( I'm really sorry if I blew up at you todayy or offended or irritated you in any way. This is DEFINITELY not my day:( really sorry kay? let whatever I have done been dusted away from your memory plss...

On the brighter side, I got my long awaited mp3, whoots!:D cos my other 2 konked out on me last year:( poop. Anyway, so now I'm happy pappy but I haven't set it up at all, during March hols I will hahaa. Sunday --- MOVIE! with jie. WHOO! sooo excited....Now, I've got tons of stuff to do...book review, noooo. math olympiad hw...shoot! idk how to do...bamboo shoot:( and to sadden you, ty, I'm sorry but it IS NOT confirmed that yr note will come yr way this week. I'm dead sorry, there's too many stuff due for the last week due to me being such a slacker unlike youu, so I'm sorry, but I'll try(:

I really gotta go do loads of stuff so byes...will definitely post this week again:D

2009-03-03T20:37:00.003+08:00

woots! happy pappy:D
luv the skin loads<3

Woots! I'm in love with my blogskin! & I DID NOT make it so it is very important to give credit which I will now!(: THANKS SOOOO OMEGA MUCH VICTORIA!(: its awesome<3>

Okay...so FINALLY common tests are over!:D Wooo! Sooo happy! But then, life goes on, you have tuitions, homework, blahblahblah. So still have to study hard...&soo many people are falling sick. Sarah-Ann, hope you're getting well!:D You seem so tiredd todayy, and I do agree you shouldn't have come to school today. GET WELL SOON DEAR!

hmmm...sooo math & lit marks were shown to us. Satisfied with math and lit. Hope I do well for the rest of the subjects! especially for Chinese and Physics! Gosh....Physics was wayyy difficult and Mr Lim said it was easy like !?! Anyway, loads of hilarious stuff happened in school because our class is really rowdy, 2G teacher told us off before lol. and 1S said we're really noisy, HAHA. Our class is just weird, LOL. why am I saying lol so many times, ah wells...

Ohh, recently, I've been feeling funny like ***** just gets influenced by someone else and she shows me that face, I don't know. I just can't take it. When I follow them to the ______, they go like why you following cos last time they ask if I want to folow them so ya. Then, she started laughing with the other person and I was like !?! Now I really think she can't make her own decisions, does not stnad firm in what she believes in, I'll just wait & see what happens through the week...I'll leave it to God(:

Hmmm...I've been brainwashed cos I'm so in love with the skin so I forgot what I wanted to write, sighs. Tomorrow is going to be awesome, slackest day, whoots! 38 year old bird isn't coming, HAHA. You people are seriously mean to call him a bird & Mrs Chow was blurred out when we asked her if she wanted to meet a chinese bird. We should learn some self-control mann. Ms Ng knows our private jokes now...& sarah suah ahemahem, you like a bird-.-"

Okayy...I'm so gonna buck up and get ready for next semester cos I'm scared:( Term 2 stuff starts on Thursday! Rawrr...Soooo fast! D: anyways, I figured out that I'm a sloth! I sleep A LOT lately...

And I'm still feeling saddish cos of something & Joanna thanks for encouraging me but it still seems WRONG in a way. I'll do my best cos I yearn for it!

I've gotta get bio info into a crossword puzzle, argh....yes, tingyan, I'll write to you soon(: you aunty lahh, me no aunty:D jkjk. maybe next week...you just wait, it will appear in yr face soon, HAHA:D byebye(:

2009-02-21T16:28:00.005+08:00

god fill the emptiness in me...

HELLO(: I'm back. Really sorry that I haven't been posting, super tardy lately. Erm, common tests are next week so this will be short post cos I'm supposed to be studying, anyway, really have to catch up A LOT mann, history is like sooo boring, cos he just reads out the slides, not as if we can't read them-.-" so anyways, yesterday was AWESOME! went for Take My Hand musical. Thanks sooo much for inviting me ting! you are really awesome(: I mean I kinda can relate to one example. I mean like sometimes I do try to do my best but yet people still don't think its good enough and all. Even though I've studied so much, other ppl get higher than me. I really don't understand, sometimes life can be seriously unfair but I'll always remember to lean on God for strength in whatever situation(: I've been really exhausted, sleeping omega late for like past 2 weeks, super zonked out lahh. So I'll be sleeping early tonight, hopefully.

Sometimes I feel there's an emptiness in me...is it because I haven't got the time to do qt? I'm really sry and mad at myself for not giving God the time He deserves. It's like I want things from Him but don't do the things for Him. I'm really sry God...I thought 2009 was great and all but it turned out that they turned away and acted as if I wasn't even there...I'm really sorry if I've offended, or didn't talk to you for the good amount of time I should have. Please don't gooo away like that:( You ppl are awesome but there's too many to juggle with, I can't plan it out RIGHT. I'm really sorry:( Nowadays, no one really cares about me, its like I follow them, they hardly come to me, I try my best to care for them but they dun care at all. It's like my words just become a speck of dust that they dust off sooner or later. I'm confused, irritated & frustrated. Help me oh Lord...

Do I mean that little to you? I really treasure ALL my friendships, hope you do too...Anyway, I gtg now, need to study, I'm really not gonna let this affect my inner being and all. I'm not gonna let it rule over me, I'll overcome with the help of God(: byebye(:

whoops, I forgot about the birthdays, sorry...here it is:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIE!!!<3
thanks for being an omega awesome sister, love youu truckloads(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA!(:
thanks for being the live of the conversation(: awesome friend(: hope to get to know you more(:

that's all i think(:

2009-02-10T16:22:00.004+08:00

sorry, sorry, sorry...

I'm really fickled about my blogskin but I'll stick to this for now at least cos not everyone can view my blog when I use the other skin. Sooo, hmmm...yesterday's qt was like really awesome. The verse kinda spoke to me and it was like on the 1st page of my journal(: thanks for the verse teewhy, haha:D I mean I was like yay! I'm finally on Joshua. And I didn't realise that it was exactly the same verse though it was like similar meaning until I looked in front.

Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Isn't that awesome? God will always be there for us(: He goes before us, protects us and will always be there when we need Him.

Okayy...yep that's about all for qt. I dunno why but I think I'm drifting away from a certain group of people. Its like they are really nice but I just somehow get urged to choose to follow the other side though I don't exactly go with ____'s group anymore. But aside from that, I'm still wondering. Have I parted from them? I'll try to talk with you people more often. Even if I dun have the time to talk with all of you, be rest assured that you people are awesomme(:

To ____: I dunno but I seriously think differently and all. You took an extra copy of the ws so I took it and gave to somebody who didn't have it then you were like what on earth are you doing? that's my ws. And when I told you it was the same copy, you gave me that look. I wonder what went thru' yr mind but I'm really sorry if I said/did something wrong. And then, when no teacher is around you tell us to not talk, listen to you talk for a whole one hour!?! Just because you like it. I mean like!?! We can do other stuff you know. And it's like all the auctions and stuff. Some people are srsly not interested and you tell them, dun talk. Sighs....I mean its okay if you talk for a while then ya but you talked for a whole like one hour and during ct, you told us to vote for blahblahblah, claiming that ^^^^^ said you had to bond the class. But voting on all those stuff does not bond the class! I mean you closed all four doors so I was really hot then open door and stand there then you tell me, sit down, like!?! It's like sooo hott mann...Maybe I don't understand youu but that's how I see you these days. And you don't even keep yr promises ok...Well, I tried to take yr word for it but it ended up that you cared less about it and threw all the work to me...It wasn't a pleasant experience okay...I hope you will mean what you say. I'm sorry if I did say/do anything wrong but I need to blurt this out, its the hurt that has been in me for suchh a loong time and it's about time I let it out.

I'm really wondering if saying sorry on behalf of others is right. It wasn't my fault but I just said it though the person who caused it didn't even care. Is this weird? I dunno. Nowadays, I dunno, I really dunno if I do things to receive praises or do I do it from the bottom of my heart...I need to try to do it from the bottom of my heart cos that's the right way to do things, not to receive praises ot whatsoever. I'll try my best, I'll try my best. I wanna change my evil self into someone who cares for others, someone who fears God and loves God, I need a change. And changing is not by human effort but its by the help of God so I pray Lord that you will help me to change my character(:

I hope you have read my prev. post. But I've been pondering about it too and that is also something we all need to try to do --- be more like God, don't just do the religious practices and all but have a personal relationship with God(: Haha, my post quite loong(: gtg now...byes(:

2009-02-08T21:21:00.005+08:00

great ordeal, great ordeal
over? finally...

I'm totally relieved now. My great ordeal is finally over. I was seriously being emo yesterday and telling myself I'll never ever do it. After all, I flunked it. Sighs...I guess it's just mee, stage fright. And my fault. Pissed and embarrassed...Thanks Annabelle for comforting mee:D

Anyway, things have been going on like a bullet train sighs. QUALITY TIME FOR GOD??? where is it? I seriously need to stop wasting time and really spend more time with God. The end times are here. What are you waiting for? You'd better do it, or it'll be too late. I remember Mrs Yap told a devotion one day on someone getting a propting to go to a teacher's home cos she was sick. But actually the person wanted to go out or smthg and wanted to visit the teacher the following week but she finally decided to go to the teacher's place for a visit. The next day, the father went to the teacher's place and prayed for the teacher. Then, on the newspaper, the following day, the teacher died. So, it was really sadd and if the person didn't go and visit the teacher that day, who would have? We can't delay. We've gotta do it when the calling comes. All the same, we must spend time with God or it'll be too late. When God comes, we'll have to face it. What are we going to say? Have we been rebellious? Have we fallen short of His glory? Have we put Him first in our lives?

I really want you to ponder about this. Every day is very precious. Stand firm for God! It's worth it! Trust me, you'll never regret it! Have we been living the life for Christ? We can say I love God, but are we truly who we say we are? True worshippers...is that what we are?

I just decided to blog about this because it means sooo muchh to mee, I hope you'll just ponder about this(: loves, charis(:

2009-02-04T20:57:00.004+08:00

Heya! What do you ppl think of the new blogskin, actually I used this the other time...Anyway, so what you think of it??? Nice??? I love it hahas. The rest of the blogskins I tried all cannot post one, so weird. You know the reason why? can tell me please(:

I'm like super touched by my Sunday School teacher for the last 3 years, now she isn't teaching me but she still remembered my birthday and specially sent a card to my house! ohemgee! I'll never forget her! She's omega nice lahh!!!!!

Then, today got 3 other people give me late birthday presents, thanks sooo much yeah? Berenice, Tingyan & Melissa(: loves. Hmmmm...and some ppl still say they are thinking about what to buy for mee hahas...wahh, why every time I have to give people ideas for what they can buy for me? can't you people think like Misha, Berenice & Tingyan! hahas...at least you still give me but I would prefer surprises for my birthday presents. Thanks(:

And SS Scrapbook I not sure how to do so anyhow lorh, but I think its nicee, hehe(: & Victoria is like the AWESOMEST CGL mann! keep the long emails going(:
I diamonds you.
I clubs you.
I spades you.
I ______ you.
loves victoria! Dun go to Canada kay? Haha, sorry it's up to God but I miss you to bits if you do. <<<3333333>

English test --- I did quite badly, boohoo:(
Chinese Test --- I did okay luhh, satisfied(:
Wanna thank God for helping me thru' both tests no matter what marks I got! GOD DE AWESOMEZZ!!!<3

Dunno what to say liaos...I'm just gonna be roasted (dead) for this Sunday's stupid concert! Cos I didn't master the song, you can have me for Sunday's dinner:( Kays gtg now, byes(:

2009-02-03T16:16:00.003+08:00

Hellooo Everyone! Just wanted to do a lil' update. Birthday stuff first kay?

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHAKEE!:D
thanks for being an awesome fren though we aren't exactly very close(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDA!:D
thanks for being an omega awesome CGL! loves. you'd better eat yr cake!!

Hmmm, things have been good and bad. Today, I fell down the steps, ohemgee...it was like in the morning, then my bag super heavy then I slipped down, luckily didn't fall backwards(: Thank God that He protected me even though my back still painful. At first, it was like just painful so I didn't cry but later really painful so I did, hahas...I ain't tough, hehe:p sry I've gotta go do my stuff now so byes...and yes, THANK YOU FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES & PRESSIES!!!:D loves<3

CHARISH<3

2009-01-29T16:09:00.005+08:00

don't ask mee why...
the feeling just fades awayy somehow:'(

I have no idea why, but I'm feeling really saddish...It's like I have to go through sooo much trouble just to get smthg that I want but yet I still tahnk God for helping me through. Sometimes I look through my work and feel that I didn't do my best, and I just feel all sad and everything. I really dunno...It's like when I'm doing it, I think I did my best but when I see the results, I say I didn't do my best...I can't stand it...mainly because everything just sucks, well kind of for me:(

Chinese Test was todayy, and I was dead scared but yeah, it was okayy just that I minused 2 freaking marks:( I just could've gotten minus 1 NOT mines 2!!! ohmanns...I'm sooo frustrated, but yeah, just committing the results into God's hands(:

Also thank God for helping our philo group thru' the project(: I'm really proud of my group for what we have done(: Though we didn't score the highest, but GREAT JOB YOU GUYS!!! luv working with y'all<3

And yesterday I slept sooo late cos I got scolded again for not looking up some stuff which wasn't necessary according to my sister. But I just dun wanna talk abt it anymore...So, of course, I kinda fell asleep in the bus this morning and woke up only to find that it had just reached sooo heng ah...Just now, I half-slept for half an hour, and woke up still feeling tired but it was quite nice...

Tomorrow I'm having _____. But somehow I just dun feel like it:( I just feel like this is the worst period of my life. And I seriously dun feel like it. I'll just chill out a little tomorrow then. I'll try my best to look forward to handbells though I'm still a little glum. God, give me the strength!

And tomorrow is English test so I gotta go study...yeah, that's all, and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! sry its late, I'm just not in the mood to talk about good stuff...sry for the negative(-) post, I'm just glum and zonked out:( so byee(:

2009-01-24T16:34:00.004+08:00

is this what life was meant to be,
the laziness in me...

Heya! Haven't been posting a lot, mainly cos I'm lazy and got lots of stuff to do too. Now, my mum is like getting angry at everyone sooo easily, sighs. Lately, I've been really lazy, I dunno why...I think I really after push myself more, tests are coming up and I hardly practice my piano which makes my mum quite angry, but seriously, I kinda hate it, I know its a strong word but yes I do hate it to a certain extent. And what's more I still have to finish and pass my Grade 7 Theory Exam which is omega difficult:(

I have to biff up commonwealth essay cos it sucks and yes, I'm currently doing prime factorisation hahas(: really have to work very hard...I think I spend wayy tooo much time on the computer, crappp...I am sooo gonna ban myself from the com but of course, I wouldn't get to touch the com for 3 days, hmmm...I've gotta ban myself from it until next weekend. Hope I don't break it(: Class tests are so near...:(

Oh yes, I was so fed up just now cos my note which I took about 1 hour to type was like gone...crap, I'll do it after class tests...sighs, super angry lahh...And I'm looking forward to ang pao money, haha, sorry but I'm just curious if the amount in the red packets will decrease since it is recession time, heh. CNY is like sooo soon and I have stupid ear infection, sooooooo frustrated...but on the brighter side, mum bought me new clothes for CNY and I'm dying to wear them, haha:D

If you didn't know, I'm also looking forward to _______! :D If you don't know, I'm gonna crown you as blurr queen! Haha...

god bless y'all,
charish<3

2009-01-19T19:14:00.003+08:00

Hello ppl! Sry again for not posting for sooo extremely loong, I'm like really lazy to post plus a lot of school homework and tests start right after CNY holidays if I'm not wrong so I've gotta mug soon:( sighs...we just started school and there's exams!!! I am so frustrated, RGS only has one exam in the whole freakin' entire year!!!:O Sounds nice, but to me, NO! We have wayy more than ONE!!! Anyway, I think its partially good cos percentage is being broken down(:

Sooo, birthday updates...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY XIAO YI!!! (15th Jan)
thanks for being an awesome aunt, luv ya loads<3

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FAITH!!! (16th Jan)
thanks for being an awesome fren, ever-caring(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BERENICE!!! (18th Jan)
thanks for being a very good fren, haha(: don't be jealous that my hair is straight, heh:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIYI!!! (19th Jan)
thanks for being an awesome aunt too, in a different way, luv ya loads too<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!!! in advance (22nd Jan)
thanks for being a gooood fren(: i just post first in case i got no time to post:)

Srsly, these 2 weeks are brithday weeks mann!!! Soo many ppl's birthdays...Anyway, my birthday is coming up too(: I am thinking about what to do, but I'm still so unsure, sighs...

So, today we had Bio and it was lyk so cool lah, we learnt how to light a bunsen burner. CYY's one became green along the way then we found out that it was caused by some chemicals, diao-.-" Anyway, it was just sooo cool but the lab coat kinda sucks cos its lyk hoott. Some ppl actually burnt their ice-cream sticks and made the disgusting incense smell! I was lyk totally irritated cos I dread the smell of smoke, cigarette and incense.

Now, I find Physics sooo hard, its lyk a lil' confusing. Oh no! I haven't finished reading 'A Sense of Belonging' sighs...I'll post this first, actually I have more to say but birthday wishes have been dragged tooo loong so I've gotta get this out todayy, so yeah. bye for now(:

2009-01-11T16:11:00.002+08:00

Hellos...okay, just super busy, mostly with church stuff lahh. Yesterday was Undignified '09:) Oh mann, I went there late and what's more! I couldn't go for the carnival I so desparately wanted to go:( I'm really very pissed off...then the whole worship was awesomme but I just couldn't really worship because I was just sooo angry but finally God helped me to put those things aside and truly worship Him and I did in the end...Yay! Face to Face album is lyk omega awesome laa...Jocelyn, I luv yr songs mann!!! And its our last album from The Loft Studio, our very own studio! I'm like sooo sad its gonna close down...Lord I Lay Down is also awesomezzz!:D Sad that these songs are not on youtube but whatever, its like totally original mannn, I luv it(:

Oh yes, before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIE!!!:D Thx for being an awesome friend, haha. More of church than school fren, heh(: See ya around! Forgot to wish you happy bdae in church, sry:(

Hmmm, orientation camp was lyk okayyy...Ican't stand sleeping on the floor, my tailbone hurts sooo muchh, and you don't have to repeat why that is the case:( I dun wanna hear that! So I put my jacket there, HA! Anyway, "It's a Mystery!" was lyk the funnest la...Then, after that, was tea so we had ice-cream then our class was supposed to clean up. While cleaning up, I found an extra cup of Mango Sherbet, ohmyyy...How can someone just waste in lyk that...so I shared it with melly and nutt, haha. Cool:D Games were lyk okayyy luh...

We have school hw on the first week of school and its orientation week!!! How can!?! Whatever...Nvm, I have to persevere...So this year, I'm so gonna study hard...That's my plan!:D I'll try my best in whatever I do and not be the slacky P6 I was last yr..Err, I dunno what to say liaos..CG was okayy today la, just that we had to work with loose sheets of paper cos they didn't want to waste money buying the books:(

Todayy really isn't my Dad's day, it was lyk he was supposed to fetch me home then when we reached home, he realised hte house key was with my mum who was in church, so we went back to church then got the key and went back home. Then, when my dad reached church for meeting he was like super late lahh, and the meeting had just ended. Sighs...so he felt soo paiseh but what to do...then, when my parents came home, my sis called to say she was done and pick her up near our church...wa lao, I think my dad was like super pissed lahh, so my mum sent my sis home...-.-"

From now onwards, I may not post that often cos school is really starting tomorrow and I need to studyy, haha...And I really feel that no one is reading my blog...Please like tag me if you read this! Its really boring if you're just talking to yrself you know...Okay gtg now, byebye(:

2009-01-01T16:05:00.004+08:00

Hey ppl! Really sry again. Super tardy with posting! School is like starting in like what aroud 12 hours, bad estimation. Anyway, today is the 1st day of 2009. "A new beginning, a new resolution" :D Okay, so of course, I would like to wish you all a Happy New Year! Actually, the main reason why I didn't is because I went for campFREE yeah, and I was sick before that. Well, by God's grace, He healed me during the camp.

campFREE was like omega awesome la!<3 face="Arial">
The last day was like the funnest mann!!! It was an amazing race around Sentosa. The funnest station was the one where you have to swim across the sea holding hands with your group members but of course with floats la. Wah, we were soaked like xiao k? But it was omega funn, I loved it loads. Then the charades stations were also quite fun la.:D Over all, the camp was AWESOMEE!!!:D I mean I got to know more ppl and stuff and know my true frens so yeah. And our group, Chicken Rice, came in 1st for the Amazing Race! gosh, I've never ever won such a thing, but it was so cool luhhs. Loved it loads. But I misssed out on the reward! Haagen Daazs icecream!!! Oh mannsD:

So sorry for talking all abt my camp but I guess that was really cool. Sry I can't be bothered to list the ppl important in my life and say some stuff cos I really lazy to do it la.

Okay, let me reflect on 2008. Err, I think overall 2008 wasn't really one of my best years but I think 2008 was a turning point for me, I mean spiritually and emotionally. I mean 2nd half of the year I started to draw closer to God and stuff. Then, there were some friendship stuff that really ruined everything. But I guess after that, it was like a new chapter of my life, though it wasn't very pleasant but still I trust God. I can't live without God, he really helps me. 2008 has really passed really quickly. And of course, this year, I really learnt who my true frens were, and really, there were very few. I mean true frens are really hard to come by, so I'll treasure them:D And for 2009, I really want to make more frens and stuff and I guess just draw even more closer to God.

So school's starting tomorrow, I really dunno what we're gonna do but I hope I get into a good class:)

Kays, I guess that's about all! Nothing much to say. But can I ask if anyone has the song "Shout unto God" & "The Stand" by Hillsong I really want these 2 songs. Pls send to me, thx:) Gtg now:) byebye.

2008-12-24T12:32:00.004+08:00

Hey Everyone! Just a short post. Err, today is Christmas Eve so I'll take this opportunity to wish every a MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! The Zebra Consequences musical was omega awesome:) Luv my church's drama team<3 color="#ff0000">Christmas party. Yay! Stay up late to countdown:D Hope everyone who comes will enjoy the food and everything we have provided. Kays, shall go do something else. Shucks, I haven't finished my Lit. books. Die! School is starting soonD: I'm so dead. Better read...Have you all read alr? Or am I very slow, bleh...

Hope to see everyone back in MGS again:) Luv ya ppl loads...Oh yes, I'm very excited for campFREE!<3 Yay! I think this will most probablty the last post of the year. So yeah. 2009 is starting:D A new year, a new resolution, a new behaviour...:D Kay, gtg now. Byez....:p Cya soon...

2008-12-19T12:14:00.004+08:00

Okay, I shall post so no one will bug me, heee...:D Anyway, I'm quite frustrated cos my mum scolded me yesterday. Is like my dad played the baseball game a lot of times and he couldn't hit the ball so when it was my team's turn, he also wanted to play, so I wasn't very happy then my mum scolded me! So angry la! Like even though I played for quite long, I didnt play the baseball game much:( Sighs, life's like that, bleh...

On the brighter side, my Aunt and fam are here:D A house filled with cousins(: Anyway, Anan has grown skinnier and taller, sigh, not as cute anymore:( hehe, I like chubby kids, gee...So they went out that's why I can post now. Err, Uncle Ming will be coming tonight(: I'm kinda bored and I just realised SBC has some IB books. And the Lit. book is thick boy! Urgh! I have to read all three books. I'm a slow reader. Man, need to get started soon. poop. I forgot to collect my PSLE cert so I have to go back to sch on Monday cos I forgot today! Crap! So ma fan...Started 1 page of 1 of the Lit. books. Its so boring, no offence. Maybe it'll be more interesting later, lol. I'm bored-.-"

My other cousin is here studying with my sis for their SATs, hee...they are quite noisy though, not sure if they are studying, heh. My house is seriously boring!!!

Okay, I think I'll go and read a Lit. book, sigh...Will someone go on msn and talk to moi?? bored stiff, thx, hehexD Kays, byebye(:

2008-12-10T23:52:00.007+08:00

Hey, really sorry for not posting for soo soo long. Bleh, I have too many things to say. I bet this will drag over 2 days. Anyway, let's get to the point. I'm back from holiday! That's the reason why I didn't post!!!

I can't explain in detail! It's too long. So, just tell you some stuff. There was this guy called Christen and he also just took PSLE and I got 4 marks higher than him. Anyway, that's not the main point! The main point is that I pity him: 1) He has to study for Sec 1 after PSLE and after his overseas trip:O 2) He is only restricted to 2h of playing on his gameboy (this isn't really a reason but I mean its holidays! 2h isn't enough) 3) On the plane, he has to go to sleep when his mother says,"Sleep!" like immediately okay. And same goes for his sister. Like omg! No life man! Pity, pity, pity! I mean at first I thought he was like those geeky boys who play gameboy/computer every day, but no! Can't believe it! He wanted to go RI okay, lol. I'm just so freaked out abt their lifestyle! "All work, no play, makes Jack a dull boy" this is so true man...

Err, oh ya, we watched loads of movies cos got a lot of travelling time. And the tour guide, Sam, was awesome! He was like such a joker/entertainer! He is one of the best tour guides I've ever met. But he's gay-ish. And he's married but still acts gay, lol. He bought a gay shirt on the second last day then he went to wear it on the plane back to Singapore. We all thought like super duper gay shirt but actually it suited him pretty well, maybe bcos he's a true gay, hehe. And he's so conscious of brands, like everything he has is branded. His parka is like PRADA, like omg! And he married a woman 13 years younger than him! Lols. He's got a son called Sean, so dam cute la!!! hahas.

The trip was just awesome, I'm not gonna elaborate. Anyway, yesterday was Daddy's birthday so we went to Andre for dinner. Before that we went to East Coast Park to cycle, but this time much faster, heh. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!<3

Omg! I'm so dam happy! I got a ___!!!<3

ZEBRA CONSEQUENCES!!! Yay! I'm looking forward to it! So excited. And campFREE!!! I'm also very excited. Lols. Looking forward to both(: My Aunt and fam is coming over this Wednesday or Thursday! Yays! So happy:D A house filled with little cousins(: Oh no! I just realised that I have piano lesson on the same day they are coming! CrapD: So angry! Now I can't play:( I'll try to ask mummy to change it, hehe(: Oh, I just realised that I'm having replacement class on Thursday so, same diffference, sighs...

Okay, I'm bored-.-" This is the post k? I'm so lazy to post, sry. byebye(:

2008-11-24T11:28:00.007+08:00

Heya! Sry long time no post. Super busy nowadays, heh. So PSLE reults came out, I'm okay with it, I mean at least it wasn't that bad but I know lots of ppl got higher than me. Congrats to Krystin, Berenice, Denise, Melissa and Clara! You ppl did really well! My Modular tuition teacher was quite disppointed with me for not getting A* for that subject, sigh. Time flies so fast! It's almost November already! Bleh..

Going for "mission" trip to COSI was awesome! Sri Leap, Leekana, Diane, Chet! They were awesome ppl man! Luv them so much. Will have to write to them soon if not super pai seh, haha. Haven't emailed to Diane. Sigh...super duper busy. I will soon. Mhmm...I miss all of them soo much:)

Now I'm really happy, dunno why, heh. God just lets us go through highs and lows, just like a roller coaster. We learn from our mistakes when we are low and come back high again:) I think thats's good, I mean all high no good, all low also no good:) yay!

Dad bought me loads of stuff this weekend. Haha, he bought me a parka, gloves, muffler, new long sleeve tees and a coduroy catlogues. Super happy! Thx Dad & Mum!

Oh yes, Julia is confirm coming to MGS, haha. Quite happy:) Jiayous for your tennis competitions this week, heh:) And yay! I'm also confirm going for campFREE! :D omg, I am so happy:D haha. One more thing, all the people in my extended family on my mum's side are going for the Zebra Consequences!!! I'm so happy/overjoyed, haha. Hmmm, I think I'll invite someone but I'm not sure, need to ask Dad. You will know who you are soon:)

I really hope I can go for fuel and ignyte soon. I really really wanna go, bleh. Anyway, I'll be going to JY soon so I'll compare then.

If you wanna see the mission trip photos, you can go to fb, heh. Kk, gtg now, bye!!

2008-11-11T12:44:00.002+08:00

:'(

[emo post]

sososososo lazy...i know:( this post shall have hardly any smileys because I am not at all happy, totally crushed:( I am facing soooo many problems: -&crashes -&teeth -&eyesight -&eyelid -&lots of things clashes -&many other problems.

Those are the main problems, bleh. I'm feeling quite lousy. Supposed to go out with P6 handbellers but it just didn't work out. Will we ever meet again? I dunno. And PSLE results!!! Oh man, I'm freaking nervous. I really hate this season. Only results (if they are good), will cheer me up if not I'd have to wait 1 more week. :'( things just haven't been working out properly. Everything is ruined!!! I'm getting all depressed:((( I wanna ~~cry~~ :'(

On the brighter side, I might be going to trinity this Saturday but I have no transport:( bleh. I told you this post is so emo:( blehbleh:( And holidays are boring, srsly...

2008-11-03T12:36:00.001+08:00

Hello ppl! Haven't been here for ages. Anyway, I've been quite busy so haven't been going on the com. Mum bought 3 games on Thursday. Hahas. Well, after my sis O's then can play. My sis studying so hard then she say Language got nothing much to study but yesterday I see her like mugging like xiao. Sighs...She always like that one. I guess she wants A1 thats why. Hope she gets what she desires(: Yay! I'm so happy after Wednesday which is her O's then we can talk normally haha. Sounds stupid, but yeah. Then she has prom on Thursday. Bleh:(

Saturday was so funn(: haha. Went to trinity for youth service. It was really awesome! Thx so much ting! Hope I can go for cell and youth service on 22nd Nov. I know its so far away but oh wells, I'm not free on 15th then she isn't free on 8th so only 22nd. Message was really good, haha. And worship was really good too.

Sunday was nicee:) Went to church as usual. And yay! I'm kinda confirmed going for campFREE. I'm so excited:D Hope you can go for yr youth camp ting(: Just continue to pray, hahas. After church, went to Dad's client's condo for "party", but actually only lunch, haha.

Okay, thats about all(: byebye:)

2008-10-29T15:29:00.004+08:00

Hello! Decided to post again. But this time its a photo post. They are long overdue. They are really old. Anyway, enjoy:)

route for the F1

BMW cars zooming past

Steering wheel of Hamilton's F1 car

Hamilton's F1 car (take note of his name, haha XD)

the thingy that juts out at the back of the car

Hamilton's F1 car again

Hamilton's F1 car yet again

super random photo, haha

my angel gave me this:)

my specs:)

me resting on this really cool table:)

my pencil on mum's cool table

full view of the table (was studying for psle that day, haha:))

Hope you enjoyed the photos:) There MIGHT be more to come, hahas:) Bye:)

2008-10-29T13:55:00.002+08:00

Hey! It's been almost a week since I last posted. Gosh! So sorry. Anyway, I decided to unlock my blog. Dunno why la. So, I have been quite busy. Went out a lot during the past week. Nothing much. Read 3 books since end of PSLE. Maybe that's slow. Whatever. Reading "Thief Lord" now. Some parts are quite scary to me, haha. Hope you like my new blogskin:) Was searching A LOT of blogskins. All were so not nice (at least to me). Anyway, finally found this one.

Oh yes, we watched "House Bunny" on Sunday. Super funny la. But its a bimbo show, lol. Should go watch it. Nothing to say. Just so bored at home. Monday was fully packed with stuff too. We went swimming and bowling. Sorry Hersheys, couldn't go cos my parents didn't allow. Anyway, I'm so excited for campFREE! Yay, Julia has agreed to go:) And for Clara, I'm waiting. Hope she can come too:)

I just realised something about Rachel. I really dun understand why she is like that. Hope she doesn't get too into it. Bleh, maybe I'm talking serious crap. Anyway, gtg now:) Byebye:)

2008-10-22T20:45:00.006+08:00

Heya! Today we had our LAST handbells performance:( Kinda sad, actually really sad. Miss all you P6 Handbell Ensemble gals. You people are awesome! :D Will miss ya loads. Hope we can still keep in touch(: Anyway, I shouldn't continue because I feel I'm just making myself more depressed.

Okay, so after that I rushed to collect class tees and give them out too. I mean seriously, really rush. I think it looks nice(: But ahem, some people were like so unappreciative, coughs. Not exactly happy with them. Then, went into the car for mum to pick me up. She was like complaining to me about how _____ some of my classmates are and it seemed as if she was scolding me, as if I can control the people, was like so emo lorh. Aiya, I mean I dun even know why some ppl dun want the class tees. I don't get it! They dun have class spirit or whut!?! Maybe shouldn't have given them a choice. And then some ppl also say "wa so big, can change or not?" I'm just speechless. I mean its a standard size and it was given to me last minute so what can I do??? gosh. I dunno la. Well, if you are looking in my point of view then you will understand. Sorry, but this is just my opinion only.

So of course, I'm gonna talk about Graduation Party. It was quite fun I must say. Well 6.6 won! Yay! But our table didn't win. lol. Anyway, at least we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly(: Ice cream cake was nicee:D Love it, yum:D Then the class skit thingy was really nice:) Crazy audience totally useless. I guess the audience can act as IT. Yep. Adeline didn't even know when to jump up, haha, no offence:) And then, we sang the Friends Forever song. Really AWESOME!!! Here's the song:)

Tomorrow is Rainbow Carnival! Yays! So excited:D I mean like who isn't, lol. Actually, tomorrow is the last day of Primary school, sighs. Will miss everyone whom I have met since P1:) Even if you people aren't like my close frens or anything, I'll still miss seeing you walking along the corridors:) And of course, I will miss 6.6 '08 loads! Although we aren't really very very bonded in my opinion, I guess everyone will miss each other:) I mean without seeing the familiar face, something seems wrong, so yeah, hope you get it.

Well, PSLE results coming out in about a month's time. Freakingly nervous. I mean I seriously scared. I shouldn't because we should always commit everything to God. So yeah. So to all the P6 ppl this year, wish ya all the best for the results(: Keep smiling:))

I will be locking my blog after I publish this so yep. Sorry for the trouble but to me, I think its neccessary(: Well, if you think very troublesome to type User ID and password then just save it into your computer(: Anyways, I've gtg. Actually, not really, lol.

Bye(:

2008-10-16T12:16:00.002+08:00

Hello! I know not many people have read my previous post on locking up my blog so I'll be giving one last chance. Okay, besides I'm also kinda lazy to do it but I think it should be done:) haha. Okay, so todayy slack again. Have decided not to spend too much time on the com. Hope I dun break this rule I so badly need to obey. lol.

Anyway, I know I have been posting a lot. Hope you like my new blogskin:) I think black skins are still nicer tho but according to lexine its emo. wateva. I think black skins rawk! hahasxD Okay, one thing I need to say. Yesterday, when I was searching for blogskins, I found a skin I really liked but you see its really small so when I tried using it for my blog. The colourful thingy turned out to be an ugly woman with heavy makeup. Stupid la! Waste my time. haha.

So today is PSLE marking day. It feels like PSLE has been gone for like 2 weeks but no, it was like last week. hai, dunno la, time flies real fast. In a whizz, school will be over which is like next week. dots. My tagboard is getting dead. Rawrr...Pls tag me but no anons pls, thx:)

byebye:)
charis(ma), hehxD

2008-10-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hey, I forgot to say that this is the last call. I will be locking up my blog when I post the next round so yeah. If you wanna read, pls do give me your email addresses by leaving them on my tagboard. Thx:)

(p.s. I'm feeling ERNIE-ish now, lol)

2008-10-13T17:43:00.003+08:00

Yo! So sorry didn't post for sooo loong. Stupid internet couldn't work. lol. Anyway, err...I'm lazy to post photos so I'll just type, hope everyone doesn't mind:) Btw, this is a pretty loong post so read what you want to:) I separated it with lines.

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So Thursday, nothing much. We went to macs for lunch after school then after that got piano lesson. Urm, Friday...oh yes, friday night was so funnn:) We were playing that Blokus game as a family then we kept on laughing like xiao then only sleep at like 1am, hahas:D Uhm, before that, we had rock climbing, it was so dam funn la. We had competition with 6.5. Then we won them like 6/0 Wow! o.o 6.6 rocks!:D

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Saturday: I woke up so late la, like the whole day was "gone" cos we slept so late. Anyway, my sis went for some netball carnival then she got 2nd for shooting! Wow! She pro la! Yay, so happy for her!:) Then, we went Vivo for lunch and then went for Youth service and my sis met her old fren like from lower primary, wow, that was cool:)

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Oh yes, then Sunday, omg, I seriously dread it A LOT! Was in like a heartbroken mood yesterday cos of the stupid thingy that happened. Its like:

*scratch*

BANG!

Ahhh! *screams*

Seems pretty stupid but you have no idea what I have experienced. Well, that man didn't look then just open the door (so stupid) lol, no offence. Sighs, this is really bad. Then after that, we went to the Qian Hu Fish Farm to err buy fish. But it turned out to be so dam fun la. We were like catching the fish, hahas. Its really fun!:) We bought like 30 fish, heh:)

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Okay, now we will talk about Monday. I practically slacked the whole day. And Handbells was so funn, omg. We were like playing cards, UNO, etc. then Mrs Tham saw us and said we are gambling, lol. We are having a friendly "match":) So anyway, we played for like 1+ hour. Quite long hahas:)

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Tuesday: We played for the CCA showcase rehearsal. Was like so bored-.-" Anyway, after that, vicks and me realised that we had missed the hip hop lol. Then we had social etiquette. Really dun like it. It sucks:( Then also played Cluedo in between.

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Okay, so today! finally. We had Christmas service, then we had hip hop. Me, vicks and annabelle were like totally lost. Like lol. Guess it was okay. Uhm, then we played Cluedo and after that speed and UNO. So here I am at home. Kinda found out that Christmas Light-up thingy is cancelled:( cos not enough ppl. All the P6s like so enthu then the rest like not enthu. Lol. Sighs. Really wanna perform. Dots. So our last performance is officially next Wednesday. Err..22nd October.

Was that long enough? Sorry. Blame me if you are blind, hahaxD jkjk. You can't because I warned you to read what you want....-.-" Your fault:) Okay, gtg bye:)

(p.s. kinda realised that after PSLE dunno what to do, Too Slack, NOT! how could I say that? lol.)

2008-10-08T20:16:00.002+08:00

Hey people! So happy to be back here:D PSLE is finally over! I am so happy though I know I have minused some marks for uhm english and science. Anyway, wanna give thanks to our Almighty God for helping us all through our exams and for those who have yet to finish, God is still showering his blessings upon you. So yeah, so happy todayyy. I went out with mum todayyy, so fun:) I went bowling first then later went to Thomson Plaza to shop a little. I bought a pair of earrings and 2 scrunchies {the hair rubberband}. Wanted to go arcade to play but aiya, had to fetch my sis so couldn't. Will go next time:D Oh yes, I will uphold the HMT people in prayer:)

Erm, so tomorrow will be fun I guess, though it can be boring. Anyway, so happy that Annabella and Rachel and moi of course will be back in the same class and I hope Kimberly will be there too:) And not forgetting Vanita, do well in HMT! Annabella you too! Not sure about Rachel but if you do take, wish ya all the best!

Okay, so I was deciding to upload some photos that have been accumulating over a really long time and I only just realised have to upload some software so most slightly I will post the photos the next time:) Currently, I am reading---My name is Chloe, it's a really nice book.

By the way, I'm gonna lock up my blog real soon so pls leave yr email address on my tagboard if you want to read my awesome blog, hahas. Going to play on the computer now. Bye:)

(P.S. Wish all the HMT P6 people all the best for tomorrow's exams! Will be praying for you all:))
(P.P.S. Will also e praying for other people in Secondary school or whatever age who are taking exams tomorrow!:))

2008-09-25T10:14:00.004+08:00

Yo! So sianz....studying...I'm not supposed to be here:( Anyway, I need to say that I am not going to be here until after PSLE:)

Because:
1. She needs to revise A LOT
2. 8 days to PSLE
3. Has a lot of stuff to do

So, I shall declare
HIATUS!!!

Uhm, I shall "see all of you after PSLE:) Gtg study/mug/revise:) byebye:)

Love,
Charis<3

(p.s. F1!!! I wanna watch:( not sure if I can. Especially bcos of PSLE! Its so early this year. Rawrr...)

2008-09-21T20:10:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...I've got lots of things to say. Let's start with the most exciting to one (to me at least). Okay, so yesterday I went to the Mobil petrol kiosk just to say real F1 race car. And it's Hamilton's! like ZOMG! I couldn't believe it when I saw his name on the car. And the person there was like it's the hei ren's (which translates to black man) car at first and because I ain't a fan of F1, I didn't know until I saw his name on the car. I got quite a few pics of the car. You can catch me with my phone if you wanna see or I can bluetooth to you or something. It's omega cool! :D So anyway, I might be over exaggerating, maybe that's because it's my 1st time seeing it real life though Hamilton isn't using it this round (like duh). He's sending it back to UK like on Monday because it's so called damaged for Hamilton. So well, I recently realised that daddy is going to watch F1. rawrr. I can't go cos only got 1 ticket. Anyway, wateva. (not a fan, so I dun really care:))

Just cut my hair. It's kind of short but I like it:) Uhm, PSLE is in 12 days!!! rawrr. I'm freaking out yet again. bleh. I feel the anxiety, the stress. Actually ain't I supposed to feel it loong time ago? Anyway, so main thing of this post is about Hamilton's F1 race car which is omega cool:D haha. That's about all! Pls also continue to give me your opinions on whether to switch to LJ or not. (read prev. post)

Kays, gtg now. byebye:)

2008-09-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

Heya! I'm supposed to be doing my work but anyway. I wanna ask a question: Should I stay on blogger or switch to LJ? I am thinking really hard because the downside of LJ is that it can't have a tagboard but it has LJ cut and I like it, heh. Give me your opinions:)

In any case, PSLE is in like 14 days if I'm not wrong. I'm scared stiff. I dun feel that I've revised:( I've gotta brush up:) And yes, I feel the same way as bev: half of myself is happy that PSLE is coming so it can go but the other half says that PSLE is coming too soon. Hmmm...

Sigh...And yes some frienship stuff again. Very sian. And Delia was so insulting. sighs. Not like I can do anything but ah wells. Hope next year will be better:) Esp with Julia:) Haha:) We are also designing class tees. Yay:D I'm looking forward to the final product, heh:) Hope it turns out nice! And of course Handbells<3 We are performing for Christmas service and hopefully, if we get the numbers, perform for Christmas Light-up:D Yay:D These will be the last 2 Handbell performances for my primary school life so yeah. It ends of quite nicely, heh:) Faith: Awww, you'll miss the best part:( I feel sad for you. But cheer up, you are on holiday:)

K la, I gtg now. Bye:)

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2008-09-13T16:17:00.004+08:00

omg. it's not that I really care about listening but yes, I wanna say that I did quite badly for english listening. now I've gotta brush LOTS for english main paper to compensate. gosh. rawrr...what am I gonna do? what if I lose 4 marks? shit. the most I have ever minus-ed is like 1 mark. gosh. :( but at least chinese listening was okay so I've got a little bit of hope. but it's just listening!!! you think that I'm freaking out but not so. everyone said english listening was okay but I thought otherwise. i thought it was quite tough. dam it!

{i am loss in this wilderness, heartbroken, not knowing what to do and walking aimlessly}

2008-09-11T19:01:00.005+08:00

My heart is beating faster by the minute! PSLE Listening is like in what? 12 hours!!! I'm freaking out. -&gettingsuperduperanxious. How about you ppl? Hope 6.6 '08 will do well and everyone will do their best:) All the best P6s if you are reading this! Lately, have been quite busy and I'm kinda on hiatus only when I have time then I'll come here. But I seriously gotta go study and so on so byebye. I'm so sorry this post is dam crappy. Anyway, all the best to ppl who read my blog and are P6s. Okay, I have to go now:) byebye.

(p.s. having burger king dinner tonight, so happy, hahas:) Also, it would be GOOD if you could pray for me because I wanna get full marks or only minus 1 mark at least or rather do my best:) I'll pray for you too:)

Love you bloggu:) byebye:)

2008-09-06T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hello! Dam happy:D Yesterday didn't do much work, like only 10 min of work. Hahas. Is that good or bad? Lol. Anyway, woke up a little late yesterday like 9+ then went to Mac Donald's for breakfast. After that, went cycling at East Coast Park. We cycle like for 3 hours! :O Butt aching like crazy now. We cycle until half an hour past the Orchid Garden. Dam nice just that we were too tired to go all the way to Changi Airport which my dad and sis did. I love Bedok Jetty<3

Oh ya, actually I dun know how to cycle so just use that 4 wheel thingy. Okay, I know this is wierd but yeah. At least at the last part I cycled like with 2 wheels:D Finally I've got the confidence. Okay, so after that, went to club to shower then go bowling. Played 3 games, score was quite low, didn't get to beat my high score but oh wells at least got above 100 for last game. Then after that went to watch WALL.E! It was super nice:) I loved it lots:) Also bought the Little Miss tees:) Whoops:) By the time finish watching was like 11+ then went for supper so came home 12+. Yesterday was like super tired la. But at least I enjoyed myself. Yay!

Hmmm...Still quite crushed but dunno whether I should talk things out with them though they are quite ignorant. Sigh...In a dilemma....After all, it isn't that easy to change ppl or rather sort things out with them. Hmmm...

Aiya, leave that aside first. Studies shall come first so byebye:) I gtg now...

2008-09-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm just feeling wierd again. First, I must say that I am still hurt. Anyway, put that aside. PSLE! I'm freaking out. I've done so little. And it is like starting in like whut? 29 days!!! {cold sweat drips} I feel so unprepared. Everyone around me seems to be smarter, for example bern and bev. i just couldn't think of anyother names. Anyway, my aggregate is like so ex-tremely low. wth. and my maths dropped like xiao. If not I could have done better than my SA1 aggregate. Buck up charis! PSLE is extremely near! Do you sense it? You'd better if you don't and Listening is next week! So you'd better buck up! And you shouldn't be here! You should be studying and not wasting time!

Sian...Dun feel at peace. Some unrest in me. Dun feel accomplished at all. And my sis claims I'm smarter than her but just slacks too much. And she thinks she isn't smart but just studies real hard. Therefore, marks are much higher. I dun believe! Can't she just admit she is somewhat or rather quite smart! IQ level 142 still say very low hor. Sigh...I ain't that smart but I'll press forward yeah? and do the best I can do:) go charis:) yay! that's a much more positive attitude:)

Okay, that was all about PSLE because it is fast approaching, I always thought there was still one more year but no, it is here! Haha, at least I will overcome this obstacle I have been waiting for since last year:) Okay, gtg study right? Dun be a slacker charis:) byebye.

2008-09-04T11:27:00.002+08:00

I am somehow so angry for no reason. I just feel wierd. totally wierd. FRIENDSHIP. This big word really sucks at times. It's just like everything was normal and somehow when you didn't know, everything turned around and by the time you realised that, it was too late and you felt like crying. WTH! I hate my life quite badly. It's like my life is being torn apart and smashed into pieces.

Well, I dunno what spurred up between ***** and me. So somehow we stopped talking and everything. I really didn't understand so I just left it alone and talked to other people but then, after a while, I felt ***** was influencing ^^^^^. I really can't take it. Is this what you call friendship? I mean tho I tried making up with *****, she didn't quite bother or anything. Maybe something happen and I didn't realise. Sigh. ^^^^^ used to be okay with me and I talked to her and everything and one day, I had to find out that she actually didn't want me. Wanted me OUT! wanted me to get LOST! gosh. I can't believe it but yet it is reality! I am just totally crushed. Everytime I am crushed, I try to act normal but sometimes it isn't that easy to control your emotions and everything. SO SORRY if people misinterpreted that I was angry with them. And also, if ***** and ^^^^^ ever find out who they are, I am so sorry that I made this thing. And I am so sorry if I offended you causing this to happen. If you think that you don't want to make up, it's fine. Just that, for me, I can't bury the hatchet that fast. And the hurt is still in me. I just seriously dun understand why this always happens:( gosh.I can't take it. Life isn't something I smile everyday. Well, I shall just try my best to get over this. Even if its my fault, forgive me pls...or you could approach me and tell me. I would appreciate that:)

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Okay, so sorry for that super emo thing. I just needed to blurt it out. Sigh. My feelings are like totally wierd. Anyway, going out tomorrow with family. Yay! double whoops! I am excited. We are going cycling then after that bowling:) Ooh, I really wanna beat my high score for bowling:) Whee!

Gtg study now. Sorry bloggu. Byez:)

2008-08-30T15:35:00.002+08:00

Heya! I'm back here for no apparent reason. Anyway, so yes, I have kinda gotten over it. It is not the end of the world so yes. I am feeling okay now just that I am sniffing continuously. Rawrr...and PSLE is so near and I have to get sick.

My immunity level is so going down. This is like the 3rd or 4th time I'm falling ill be it fever or cold or whatsoever. *sniffs* So sian, my tissue box is on the verge of finishing and I tend to go to the sink more often. Irritating. I also have a sore throat and it had to come in 1 package which sucks. Sigh...

Oh yes, Julia got into MG! So happy for her because she thought she wouldn't get in but she did then she smsed me so late just to tell me. And this prelims she did quite well. Congrats! I'm happy for you. And you beat me for Maths! Hahas. Way to go Julia! Now, I am thinking twice of coming back to MG since she is coming:) Yay! But I will have to think through this though.

Just now, in the car, my mum was like telling me what tuitions I am going for next year. Sigh...Time really flies and I'll be in sec school alr. mhmmm....

Another thing, Bernadette got 3rd for ALOUD! Congrats! Go to her blog and see her pics. I feel so guilty for not supporting her. sighs...but I supported her in my heart, hahas, XD. OKay nvm, this seems lame.

I think that's about all. I'm bored . lol. Okay, byebye:)
Peace Out!

2008-08-29T13:02:00.003+08:00

Hello! The word to describe me now is:
PISSED.
I am so pissed with certain ppl. In my heart, it feels that the whole world has just been crushed. I hate this moment and it has to come again in the same year! I am so angry! Sigh.

Anyway, today was Teacher's Day so obviously give presents to teachers lor. Then, Melissa asked me to go with her to give Mrs Tham present so I follow then Mrs Tham was like "thank you, thank you" to me. lol. Then I was like okay. And she thanked as numerous times. Fyi, just realised the teachers sitting near Miss Soh super nice la. They let us into the staffroom, esp Mrs Ng. But Mrs Leong doesn't really like it but ah wells. Even Mrs Lee let us in, so unlike her! Haha. So sad, Miss Dai is like gone! Rawrr...Why must she go? So angry...

Uhm...I kinda enjoyed the Teacher'sDay Performance, esp Sian in her Tutu and her tap dance. She is super cute in her Tutu, hahas:) My prelims marks were so bad, and I am so angry with myself! Even my Maths, supposedly my best became really bad! Hope it doesn't happen in PSLE, if not I die liao. Okay, I think that's all! Need to study very hard for a few weeks and then it's over, yay! Oh ya, next week is September holidays, yay:D

Kays, byebye:)

2008-08-22T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hey Everyone! Has it been that long since I last posted? 27 days! My record! Yay! Almost a month. Sorry I didn't give warning I was kinda going on hiatus. I mean it was kinda unexpected. I am also sorry that I locked my blog for a while:) haha. It was due to some reasons and people started asking me:) yay, now I know who really reads my blog:) tag me:)

Okay, let's get to the point! Yesterday was last day of prelims, yay:D But the weird thing is: people asked me what I did yesterday and I told them, study. And they were like!?! Finish exams you still studying? lol. haha. Actually, it isn't exactly studying, it's just like notes and stuff which I find quite fun and relaxing. I felt SO accomplished yesterday and quite accomplished todayyy:)

Uhm, so prelims was okay luh, just that I wanna slap myself for minusing lotsa marks for Maths, rawrrr...and also we got back a little bit of English and when I told my mum my marks, she was like :O. Well, cos I got quite low and that is quite usual anyway because that is my 2nd worst subject. And yes, Science paper was quite okay...easier than expected, yay. Hope I do well! To all Science tuition gals: Aren't you happy we got the same questions? Yay! :D

Then, I watched Beijing Opening Ceremony but that was sooo long ago, oh well. This post is all jumbled up cos I'm just typing whatever comes to my mind, haha. Well, Singapore got Silver for Table Tennis! Yay:D I am PROUD to be a Singaporean:))

Hmmm...what else have I missed out? Oh yes, PSLE oral! How can I forget? English was okay luh but Chinese was bad, horrid. Hope they moderate because it is unfair that the other badge got MUCH easier one!!! RAWRR...Another thing, my veggie fast officially ended on 090808! Unfortunately, not a very nice number, haiz. Btw, my English tuition teacher told me something funny: 2008 2008 because the date for that day was 20th August, haha. Cool eh? Nvm if you dun get it:)

Would also like to wish Krystin a Happy Birthday! Sorry it's like super late! Hope you liked the present:) 090808! Same as end of veggie fast:D

Super sorry that this post is super duper jumbled up. All not in date order. Today, Jolene dropped her own Art gift box and it was in pieces!!! And she was sitting on bern's place! All the little pieces are there bern! hahas. Be careful if the cleaner doesn't clean it, lol. Then what's more? Jolene asked Bev to break it even more in the dustbin, LOL.

Yet another thing, I realised that NOW I can discern who are my TRUE friends! NOW I know the hypocrites and the backstabbers and NOW I know the trues ones who stay by me through ups and downs. That is good! NOW I know! Kimberly! omg. You are my awesome fren. Sorry that I "ignored" you in the 1st half of the year. I might be changing class so plss come with me!!! I dun wanna leave by myself, having experienced IT before, PLS!

Fyi, TO MY ANGEL:
Why can't you just be more law-abiding? Give me something, rawrrr...I haven't heard from you for such a LOONG time! Plllssss...sorry if you are reading this, but I wanna scream this out to you.
(p.s. not referring to prev. angels)

So, I think that's about all! Long enough? haha. Okay, tata. Will try NOT to make you read this long again:) Also, sorry for making things troublesome by changing the link:) Had to do that for some reasons but I love this link A LOT, hahas:D Thought of so many and made a list, finally liked this one the most:)

Wish ya all the best for results! Hope everyone does well:)
Kk, tata. Peace Out!

2008-07-26T20:49:00.003+08:00

Hello! I went for Founder's Day dinner last night and took some pics, heh. Enjoy it:)

a pretty good shot of yaya, she was about to laugh, haha

vicky with her smile

penglet & melly drinking mushroom soup:)

I was like super bored todayy so decided to write on my foot like ty:)

Haha, hope you liked the photos:) More photos may come when people send me. I took very little cos of low battery, sianz...

Anyway, the dinner was rather nice, and it was also my 1st time wearing dangly earrings which was cool:D heh. Gtg do my work so bye:)

Peace Out:D

2008-07-17T14:12:00.005+08:00

Okay, hi! Nothing much to talk about but I'm posting for the sake of it because some ppl have been asking so yeah. Today we went to Science Centre and it was super duper fun though I spent majority of the time slacking in the comfortable cushiony MacDonald's chair. Haha:) Oh ya, before that, we ahd to go round getting info to fill up the worksheet. So much to copy until my hand ache like what la! And plus, my pen super smudgy so smudge the whole thing. Plus my sweaty hands made things worse!

Anyway, on Wednesday, Sian suggested to play Angel & Mortal as a class so we did. And yes, my Angel made it so obvious so I kinda know my Angel. Anyway, Adeline suspects me to be her Angel but I aen't, haha. _____ is Adeline's Angel, heh. Can't tell here cos Adeline reads moi blog:)

Right now, I'm eating Hairbo sweets which I bought from Curiosity shop at Science Centre. Overall, I should say I'm quite happy:) One more thing, during Chapel todayyy, something pricked my heart and it was quite painful, yeah. I mean the message really meant a lot to me.

I guess I've got a lot to say. By the way, we had 3 days of LifeScience. On the 1st day, we had to heat up some super acidic solution and it made everyone like tear. I couldn't take it at the last part and teared a bit too, haha. Seriously acidic. then 2nd day grindd, mash whatever it is called, the pandan leaves. Super xiang! haha.Then last day, do a lot of experiments but NOT successful, so sad:(

I didn't realise I have so much to say! Whoa! I think ______ is angry with me. I mean she used to talk to me but now, like yesterday we sat next to each other and didn't talk much. Sigh...I guess _____ is influenced by ______. ______ actually kinda stole _____ from me, hmph....:((

Aiya, I very sian liao. So byebye. Gtg now!
Peace Out!

2008-07-08T15:08:00.002+08:00

Insanity! That fully describes me nao. I dunno but I feel todayyy isn't the dayy nd I wonder why...I'm just somehow feeling crazily stupid....Prelims are like so x-tremely near and I am not even pushing myself or rather stretching myself....sigh...

Okay, anyways, I'm very busy and have tons to do so I shall bid byebye to my bloggu:)

K la, I really have no idea what to say except: Piggy was so extremely high todayy. Haha.
Byez....
Cheezzzz....

2008-07-06T20:58:00.003+08:00

Hi! I'm so seriously exhausted from being sick for like 3-4 days. First a fever and then a sore throat that is seriously sore. I dunno why but its like super inflamed. Every time I swallow saliva or anything, its painful! Oh my, I have no idea what's happening. My immunity level is sooo going down....

Anyway, now I'm so frustrated with like 3 different anons on my tagboard and they won't even reply me. Well, I do not think they are the same ppl but still...its very frustrating...Maybe there are at least 2 different ppl. Sigh, can't u ppl just tell me who you are? I mean well actually I do suspect ppl but I do not know exactly....Can I plead that you tell me who you are? Pls...Thx:)

I really dunnno what's going on now....I'm so cringed up and stuff. It's just so uneasy for some reason...Oh God, pls help me....

not in the perfect mod at all....

2008-07-03T14:35:00.003+08:00

Hi people! I dunno why but I feel I'm a sucker. I got pissed off with so many ppl in just two days! Even with my parents. I hate this and I wonder what is the problem with me? People think I'm just irritating but I have no idea why. plus they dun even wanna tell me. Then how do i change? My progress is very slow and there is hardly any improvement! Why? Time ticks so fast, I can't catch it and hold it back, it flies! Anyway, I feel I'm an idiotic person though I know I am not but now NOW I do not feel like i am ME for some reason. I have lost much of my temper and my self control level is gettting lower and lower. I have been doing all sorts of things so slowly because I dun realise the urgency and I need to! Ugh! Life is just more irrtating and complicated than I thought it would be, sigh..

On the brighter side, yesterday was Art so I was like doing the pattern thingy and then when I finished 3 stuff, it dawned on me that 2 things could be the eyes and the other the nose! Cool eh? So now I'm gonna do a smile:) haha.Then, today we had CIP during reccess. Berenice, Natalie and I were packing up the PE storerooms at the basketball court and stuff then because we were super bored and one of the storerooms stinked like what la. Then, Berenice and Natalie played volleyball. They kept on hitting the Music room door and Mrs Chua was inside teaching Music hahas. Luckily, she didn't come out and scold or smthg. Then, Mrs Lee came along so we faster go into the storeroom and pretend to pack and stuff. Fortunately, she didn't scold us but she instructed us to pack up and stuff. Then, I ran all the way to Bamboo courtyard store to find key for basketball court stores only to find that ak had the key and was upstairs so I asked Vicky to go and get it. Then, ran back and locked it with much difficulty though I didn't lock it. After that we returned the key to General Office. And finally went back to class. Quite fun altogether:)

Whoa, then later, during English Melly and I sat together while doing composition and we were talking about all sorts of stuff that was all mundane. One interesting fact though: Melly's mum is adopted haha. okay, so anyway, I was cracking "jokes" like: Nasi Lemak, Nasi Alamak. heh. ok, then obviously after talking sooo much, we couldn't finish so Mrs Leong gave the pissed off face and so we have it as homework haiz:)

Wow, this post is wayyy long. K la, gtg now, bye...
Patterns are AWESOME!

rejoicing in the presence of the Lord:D

2008-06-29T22:08:00.004+08:00

Hey Everyone! I've changed my blogskin after much difficulty, sigh...Hope you all like it:) Wasted so much of my time, guilty, hehe...

Okay, so today was really awesome as Mum bought me a new Timex watch. Thx Mum! You're awesome. Then, God answered my prayer today. I was like asking God what book in the Bible I should read next after finishing Revelation yesterday then went to church and got a booklet about the 40 day fast. Wow, so awesome, it's right smack on the correct day! Cool! PTL! I'm so extremely bouncy except that Berenice couldn't be bothered to help me change my blogskin just now.

Anyway, Handbells is tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it:) Sorry but I've gtg now, I haven't finished my tuition homework! Die!

By the way, to anon: Tell me who you are if not I will treat yr comment as a compliment.

K la, really gtg now, byez...:)
Peace Out!

crapping for nuts & so moody:(

2008-06-24T15:24:00.005+08:00

Hey Everyone! I'm sooo very sorry for not having updated for such a long time. Anyway, it was because of certain matters but I've kinda gotten over it.

Well, school started a few days ago and it was real fun because we were slacking, heh. But now we are really getting into se-Ri-ous (as Fabian says) work. Then again, we have lots of homework. Right....Oh yes, now we only have 1 teacher so all the nice teachers kinda gone other than Mr David who is boring and I dun mind not having him but yes, I sooo want Mrs Chua and Mrs Tham! What's their problem? Just because change timetable means no more same teachers? That's unreasonable plus we have been getting along with the teachers so well for 1/2 a year! How can they just cut it off? Seriously, then again, there is no difference between mainstream and US. This all doen't seem to be right! Everyone likes Mrs Chua and most people like Mrs Tham! What is their heck problem! (Oops, sry for vulgar.)

Anyway, everything has been going WRONG. I seriously have to cope with so many things, sigh:( Though friends are there to support me, but I have to tackle it myself. Sigh, _____ is acting so super wierd nowadays and I wonder why...We used to talk and talk and talk but now its all different, she seems to be sticking to someone else. Sigh, even ______ & _______ thinks so too....We wonder why....

Okay, this is precisely all the crap! Then prelims are coming up like SOOOO soon! :( When they give us the timetable, they just stress us more than making us more prepared. By the way, we were suppose to do a most caring teacher normination so a lot of ppl were like Miss Tan but I'm on the contrivercial. There are so many teachers so I decided on one MOST caring teacher. But it was difficult. So I just put one name down.

Homework, Tuition, Tuition Homework! That's what I have been busy altogether with! For goodness sake! Its PART and PARCEL:( Okay, I shall not waste time, gtg and do school homework NOW!

Byez...Peace Out!

KC photos:)

2008-06-13T13:10:00.013+08:00

Hellu everyone! I finally got hold of KC's pictures and shall now be able to show you all. Here you go! Enjoy;)

my cutest & youngest cuz:) (Shi An)
(he tags to my sis a lot, that's why he's holding my sis's eeyore, heh)

my cuz doing crazy faces XDXD

Hope you enjoyed the pictures:)

EDITED: too bad if you didn't get to see the other pics that were posted yesterday...dun wanna show all for some reasons:)

(You, Me)

Eh, show me leh. No way! Too bad, you didn't see yesterday. Pls lurh!:( I'm so sry dear, but this is to protect privacy:) Pls, just once. NO! byebye:)

K la, byebye. Maybe I will post another set of photos so watch it if not you'll miss it:)

feeling a little moody...

2008-06-12T21:45:00.004+08:00

Ok, I feel a little moody today, dunno why though...Anyway, I dunno what else to talk about KC so I guess the last post was a brief one about KC.

Oh, I just finished playing my piano for almost 2 hours! I can't believe it myself but its reality! Ah well, today had the math tuition again and that teacher kinda likes a girl in the class I think. I mean you think I'm crazy but I am not, it's like he keeps on talking to the girl when she sms. Then, ask her why she sms and this sort of stuff. That's precisely wierd, heh.

Then, for the past few days got at least 2 tuitions. People say I'm scary but I'm not, seriously. Ok, I shall continue tomorrow or something. Gtg now!
Peace out!

KC's food, yumyum, KC is fun with cuz, heh:)

2008-06-10T12:25:00.004+08:00

Okay, right...I just came back from cousin's house in KC, so yeah...It was EX-tremely fun there. Especially seeing An-an as we all call him, he's so dam cute la...And zhezhe is like so cute too cos his cheeks are really nice to pinch, heh. Well, my sis took some pics so maybe when she downloads then can show to you all. They are all dam cute larhs:)

Food is so good there:) I luv Transdelight Cafe<3

At Spring, they got a donut place called Apple Donuts which is nice:) Then, also have ice cream place called Desserts. Its like really nice:) I ordered passion fruit and oh no I can't remember. Ugh, my stupid short-term memory:( So sad, I can't tell you. Oh ya, then of course we play with them. Oh yes, my Aunt's oxtail is like really delicious. Lamb Shang is also nice but I prefer oxtail<3

K la, I gtg do my work, will continue another time and maybe will show ya all pictures:)

EX-tremely E X C I T E D :D Whee!

2008-06-04T11:51:00.004+08:00

Ok, I'm extremely busy nowadays:(

Some people say I'm too sensitive but is it true? I don't know. Some people say they are frens but yet not. I wonder what's going on. I wish I could understand everyone but it is impossible. I tried, I tried, I tried but some people just don't understand and I don't understand them too. Lots of misunderstandings come along the way. The broken hole takes a long time to mend so I'll wait though the pain continues pricking me to the utmost.

Right, I'm just crapping away. Anyway, I went to the gym with my mum yesterday which was dam fun. Then, we went to bowl at AC as a family on Saturday yeah. So my muscles were kinda aching because we haven't been bowling for a VERY long time and I played very badly for the first game. I got 00 then 00 again, that shows you how bad the first game was.

Tuitions are bombarding me continuously without fail but these stuff is boosting me, yeah. Gonna see me car seng (cousins) like tomorrow. Very excited:) And its chill out time for the weekend:) Wow, I'm looking forward to it but I still have to do work though minimal:) heh, I'm luvin' it:D

K la, oh ya, before I forget, I'm kinda bored during the holidays so if you want, you can sms me and I'll be replying you fast as long as I'm not in tuition. Oh, another thing, Piggy! Hurry ok...You owe me something for like almost 1 week. I'm gonna check on Monday and if IT isn't done, you get spanking.

I gtg now, finish my work and stuff:) I'm kinda on Hiatus until Monday. So yeah, only can sms or go on Msn like today but tomorrow onwards till Monday NO. I'm on hiatus from now till then. K la, bye, miss ya lots:)

J O V I A L F O R N U T S :D

a monotonous life...

2008-05-29T14:40:00.003+08:00

Bleh, I'm so bored and SO not looking forward to the June holidays. Got sooo much homework and sooo many tuitions, consecutively every day. I hate holidays other than December holidays because you can really slack though you still have tuition but very minimal. Well, I guess I will have to stress myself out just have this holiday and prepare for PSLE.

Anyway, _____ really doesn't seem to like me and I'm kind of sad. I didn't really mean to break this relationship up. I'm so sorry. If you read it, pls forgive me ok? I didn't even mean to do anything and I really tried to change but it just didn't work out. So sorry.

Right, today we watched the Rwanda Genocide during English which was nice though got a lot of killings and stuff. Well, its just exposure and I love History, heh. History is soo interesting:) Ok, if you haven't taken my friend test, you better do it now! jkjk. But just do it k? Thx:)

Well, it seems that my life has 2 sides, the happy side and the bad side, I really hope that the bad side will be gone. It really hurts. It has been going on for a couple of months so I hope ______ will forgive me and we'll make anew because I hate cold war or enemies.

Ok, I've gtg now. Byez!
Cheeze:)

Jovial :D ...and yet not (P.S. Luv Day)

2008-05-25T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone! Bleh, I'm extremely happy when I came onto the computer but now not so for some reason. I read 2 ppl's blogs and it was rather depressing to hear that in both scenarios, they wanted to tell their fren they needed to break up their friendship. If I were that person, I would really feel very sad but I guess it is hard to say "I hate you" or "I dislike you" to someone so I think typing it or writing it is a better way. Well, the fact is laid there so I guess its just kinda sad.

Well, on the other hand, my happiness was rather spoilt by that but I'm still a little happy. First, we had no Gracestar today so I went for 2nd service. Before that, I was talking to Julia which has been a very long time since we had long talks together. Well, we were talking for like 1/2 an hour. It was really great to catch up with my bestie:) Then, we had to go separate ways. She went off to somewhere I dunno anyway, then I went for 2nd service. It was pretty great with Mervin being the worship leader. His song selection is splendid:D Ok then, after that we had SKT as the speaker, the message was about marriage so it was NOT relevant at all to me so I kinda shut off, hehe.

Oh yes, we went to this WOOD restaurant for lunch at Vivo. Name sounds cool! Food was good. Food is supposedly to be cooked over wood imported from overseas. Anyway, after that had to go for the workshop thingy and now I'm here. Haha:) Pretty packed day.

Argh, got 3 test papers for homework and teacher didn't even mention properly whether supposed to hand in by Tuesday, bleh. Haven't even finished 1! Die! Must concentrate:( Oh, I'm also going to cousin's house during the June holidays:) I'm happy! Ok, that's all!

Gtg do my work:( Need to concentrate charis!
LUV Day!

(P.S. Thx for just being such an awesome friend, ____ & ____!)

NEW Friend Test!

2008-05-21T19:04:00.002+08:00

Sup! I'm back with a NEW Friend test for everyone to try! Try to get a smiley face from me. You will see a smiley face from me if you do well in the test. You will see a sad smiley if you have done badly but if you are ok, there will be no smiley for you, haha. Ok, pls take the time to answer the questions, it's only 7 ques!

Bye, I gtg now. Enjoy!

Hyper, Bouncy, Whee! :D

2008-05-19T20:36:00.003+08:00

Hey Everyone! I've been so lazy to post. Dam hyper now:D Anyway, exam results are here but I did quite badly except for Maths but I feel I could have gotten like 100, haha. You may think its to the extreme but that's IT. The rest of the subjects were quite bad though. Oh yes, I got class highest for Chinese composition which I didn't think was good at first. I guess I do so much better for composition in exams because I cram all sorts of good phrases and squeeze as much as possible into the composition, hehe.

Right, I solved Rubik's Cube twice today:) My new record. Anyway, I'm doing my tuition homework now and have so NOT been relaxing for these past few days after exams because my English Comprehension is SOOooo weak so my mum ask me to do like loads of comprehension. Ah well, it helps anyway. Oops, I forgot to say that my Science tuition teacher was SOooo super shock when he heard of my marks because Krystin and I always top the class. That's what my mum told me because he purposely called to find out my marks.

Oh ya, if you are interested in IB next year, tell me. Need to ask you something:) I'm not telling because I dun want someone whom I dunno to know this. I mean outsider, not referring to anyone who knows me:)

Ok, gtg now. Bye:)
Whee! XDXD (That was so random)

Yay! Freedom! Bouncy:)

2008-05-13T15:13:00.002+08:00

Right, so I'm kind of in the mood yet not to rejoice. It doesn't seem like exams have ended. Oh well, I haven't been posting due to having mugged for about three weeks. It seemed so long since I touched my dearest bloggu:)

Ok, let's get right to the point! I'm happy cos exams are over. NOT! And I still have loads of tuition homework that is undone:( Then, life goes back to normal. Exam results coming back too! I'm so so dam scared. Today's Science was so darn tough la. I hope I won't failX( And then get spankingX(

Just wanted to get in touch with you all:) Ok, I gtg now...Bye!
R E J O I C E:)

I'm so Sorry Dear, I'm on HIATUS...

2008-04-26T22:14:00.004+08:00

Hello, I've seriously not posted for a long time. Well, this is due to the fact that I'm really busy nowadays and I just have no time to post or do anything. I also can find hardly any time to go on Msn. Mid-Year Exams are so extremely near so I'm trying my very best to buck because after this its prelims then the big thing, PSLE! Oh well, I'm studying now.

Oh yes, we got very badee for SYF Handbells so I shan't say and I flucked totally for NAFA run:( I dunno but I just always have this stupid stitch when I run even though I dun drink water before that. Urgh! I think I'll get 4 points or something:( Really saddening...Anyway, I forgot when is the 5 item NAFA test, can someone tell me? By sms or Msn? Thx:)

I think I need to go Hiatus bloggu! I'm so seriously sorry but I'm very de busy leh! So, now I declare
HIATUS!

Ok, so I shall see you back again after the exams:) Bye...Miss you all! Jkjk:D
Peace out:)

(P.S. I got this new pink pen! Dam happy!)

Time is a Whizz in Life

2008-04-20T21:20:00.004+08:00

Seriously, time has just flown past me in a whizz, the weekend has just ended and Mid-Year Exams are gonna start soon when I feel I have just ended CAs. Sigh...

On the brighter side, I'm happy I've completed my Little India project! Yay! No more projects to worry about. I'm free, at least a little though totally not. I did like a replica of my Chinatown project last year. I used the same board, you see I'm cheapskate or rather my mum is because she says she doesn't want to be another board.

Oh yes, my unforgettable day has come! It's tomorrow! Pray hard for us to get GOLD! Our eyes, mind and heart focus towards the goal which is a GOLD! Haha, tried to make a pun which didn't really work but wateva.

Oh no! NAFA running test is also coming up! ZOMG! I'm dead! Not quite though...Well, I'm suckish at running, seriously...I'm always last! Well, I tell the truth because it is a fact so what's there to deny? I suck at running! People say they aren't good but they aren't last so what's the point? They may say what they like but I'm aiming to be at least not the last this year:) Who likes being last? Anyway, pray for me also k? But DON'T you dare tease me because I'm last. I never told anyone that I was the last other than the person who was in front of me, like duh. SO DON'T YOU DARE, I TELL YOU!

And Oral is on Thursday! Die die leh! I haven't started practicing for English Oral yet! Buck up Charis! Buck up! Dun break your Mother's heart! Concentrate! Stop being a slacker and become lazy or even a slog!

Ok, push stuff aside! Tomorrow is a BIG day! Make sure you do well! Nvm, if you dun get what I'm saying. Well, I shall have to buck up and do lots of stuff! Really busy! :(

I gtg now! So sorry bloggu:( Bye...
CHEEZOME!

(P.S. Remember to pray for me tomorrow for Handbells! Thx!)

Want YOU to be My Friend!

2008-04-19T17:00:00.012+08:00

Hello! I'm bored now -.- Indeedly so...Trying to chat with someone which is impossible because no one seems to be online other than Natalie who has gone offline. It's also pointless to talk to Natalie because I just asked her who that person was in her display picture and she started telling me I like him. Giving her 3 smacks for irritating me in that convo. that just ended.

Oh yes, had Maths Olympiad today. Dam difficult ok? Left like more than 1/2 of it blank. It was super brain-wrecking:( Hope I get into 2nd round which seems quite impossible due to the fact that some smart people filled up all the questions and seem very confident. Anyway, I dun think I'll pass so yeah.

Hey, Handbells SYF is on Monday! Dam scared! Chill down the spine, wobbly legs... Cheer for me in your heart and pray that we get Gold k? No slips, no non-harmoniness...Yup! Cheer k? I mean it! I mean pray la...If you're my good friend, you would do so:) Tell me if you did pray, I will thank you personally of course!

~~ Your Kind of Friendship ~~
It takes more than caring

To be a real friend;

The nature of friendship;

Requires a blend

Of warmest compassion

And love deep and true

To reach and to comfort

The way that you do.

Because I can see

That your kind of friendship

Is priceless to me.

Hope you understand this poem. This what my perspective of a friend is...

This is another poem only for some people but you can still read it...

My Friend
My Friend when I think of you.I think of all that we've been through. All the times we argue and fight,I know deep inside that it isn't right. I, then feel bad and alot of pain. It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain. I love you dear friend with all of my heart. But now that you're gone I've fallen apart. I'm getting better as the days go by. I wish sometimes this was all a big lie. I pray to you every night. It's like you're my fire, a burning light. My dear friend, I miss you alot. I still wonder why you were put in that spot. I know you're in a place much better than here. Watching and helping me with all of my fear. Our friendship my dear friend,we will have to the end. Friends till the end is what we will be.Someday we'll be together,together you and me.

Dun forget me to the very end:(

A FRIEND FROM ABOVE....

I prayed for you before we met,

Not knowing who you'd be.

I asked the Lord to send a friend.

One chosen just for me.

I asked that they'd be Godly,

With wisdom of His ways.

A friend to help and guide me

I the troubles of these days.

So often in life, we need someone

To listen while we talk.

Someone who will not condemn or judge,

But encourage us as we walk.

The narrow road we choose to follow

May sometimes make us stumble.

But to have a friend to catch our fall,

Teaches us to be humble.

When I asked the Lord to send a friend,

Though many came and went.

He gave much more than I ever asked,

For you are the friend He sent.

Touching? I felt it so I decided to post it, yeah. I'm a little emo so forgive me if you think I'm wierd...

Ok, I gtg now...bye:)

Peace Out!

Little Dog<3 Lime Green:)

2008-04-19T16:54:00.002+08:00

Your Ideal Pet is a Little Dog

You're both high strung, hyper, and cute.You're one of the few people who can get away with carrying your little dog in a little bag.

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.At Your Lowest:You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.In Love:You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.How You're Attractive:Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.Your Eternal Question:"What else do I need in my life?"

Bouncy:)

2008-04-17T14:18:00.007+08:00

Oh no! Seems that my blog has become a little dead! I shall sort of revive it now:)

Got so many things that happened...I dunno what to talk about. Anyway, today we had mini Handbells performance during Chapel. It was so super sucky! Victoria was sick so she didn't play and I had to cover up 1 note while Rachel covered up the other note so it was horrendous. Well, hope Victoria gets well! But we played real badly! Thx to Victoria for being sick! (sacarsm)

Then, what's more? Mrs Chan didn't conduct the 2nd song so we flucked! Mrs Tham then nudged Mrs Chan to conduct but she acted blurr and didn't so kind Amanda counted 123 then we started, so embarrassing la! :(

Anyway, we just did badly! Today was so super funny la! Natalie had this wierd dream that Berenice's ______ (_____) was an Indian! And everyone started laughing crazily! Seriously, why would Berenice choose an Indian _____? Then, we were playing hangman then I asked Mrs Chua to solve it and she caught me with the wrong spelling twice! So embarrassing k? :$

Shucks! Maths Olympiad is on Saturday! Die die la! Must study k? :( Gtg now as usual...
Peace out!

(P.S. _____ does not want me to say so I can't:(...ask me if u want)

Woots!

2008-04-10T14:47:00.003+08:00

Okay, I seriously dunno want to write, I guess I'll just talk crap.

Yesterday, I was like super duper pissed with ________. (She isn't from school btw) Anyway, she was like, asking me stuff that was private so I didn't want to answer then she was like so unhappy ok? Feel like telling her off ok? Sometimes I ask her then she say its private so I ask no more. Raawrrr...Super pissed off ok?

Anyway, I've slightly gotten over it. Now I'm going to have to start doing my Piano Theory. Hope everyone is happy! On the brighter side, we went to the computer lab for Maths today, actually it was kind of boring though. Well, for Chinese we had this composition to do and I wrote ex-short. We also had this talk about writing Chinese composition and I fell asleep at the last part. Gosh, it's seriously boring. Then, we had Situational Writing for English.

Oh yeah, I'm so excited because tomorrow is International Friendship Day! We are going to play games for half an hour. Yes! :) Then, I'm gonna miss class for like 2 hours for Handbells which is bad and good. Good because some lessons boring ma. Bad because if teacher teaching something important, I miss out. :(

Ok, I told you I'm crapping. Wateva, I've got to do Piano Theory so byezo...
Peace out!

;;;;;;;;;;;; This is what I am! ;)

2008-04-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

You Are a Semi-Colon

You are elegant, understated, and subtle in your communication.You're very smart (and you know it), but you don't often showcase your brilliance.

Instead, you carefully construct your arguments, ideas, and theories â€“ until they are bulletproof.You see your words as an expression of yourself, and you are careful not to waste them.

You friends see you as enlightened, logical, and shrewd.
(But what you're saying often goes right over their heads.)

You excel in: The Arts

You get along best with: The Colon

Caregiver =O

2008-04-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding.You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner.At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people.You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operativeWhen other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all.

ZOMG! Can't believe I'm a caregiver! =O

Harp:)

2008-04-05T15:12:00.001+08:00

You Should Play the Harp

You are a sensitive soul, with a great admiration for beauty.You definitely have what it takes to make beautiful music, but most instruments are too harsh for you.You are subtle, shy, and even a bit spoiled. You're very picky about most aspects of your life.It's just your style to play an eccentric, hard to transport instrument like the harp that few people consider.Overall, you have the relaxed demeanor of a leisurely upper class person, and your music would reflect that.Your calm yet soulful harp playing would be sure to help people forget their troubles for a while.Your dominant personality characteristic: your zen-nessYour secondary personality characteristic: your quiet independence

Oh no! Is this true? Wth! Anyway, I don't mind playing the harp...

Mathematical, that's what I am?

2008-04-05T15:00:00.003+08:00

Your Thinking is Concrete and Sequential

You are precise, orderly, and realistic.You tend to get to the point and get things done.Difficult, detailed work is easy for you. You take things step by step.Time limits aren't a problem for you either. You work well with deadlines.What does drive you crazy is any sort of task that isn't precisely laid out.You don't like anything to be ambiguous. You prefer to deal with the facts at hand.

Is this what I really am? Take the test and see for yourself.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofthinkerareyouquiz/

P.S. I forgot to say that I'm getting more bimbo these days when I hate bimbos. Urgh!

Whoo! So many Events!

2008-04-05T10:14:00.003+08:00

Wheezo! Going for tuition soon! ZOMG, I forgot to talk about Ms Dai's wedding in moi previous post. How could I? She's one of my fav teachers.

Anyway, well her wedding was like on 29th March. Didn't take a single picture because I felt it was too troublesome, hahaz. But it was so cool to see her in her wedding gown. Then, she was like I'm trying to get out of this circle of students, because everyone was crowding around her. Well, then I heard someone call her mei hong so I guess that's her Chinesse name. I also didn't know she was a catholic and catholics always have to do that cross thingy yeah.

Now, I shall talk about yesterday's swim meet. We went for Handbells first as I told you all. Then, there were 4 of us left as we all wanted to take Mrs Tham's car but she gave an excuse that her car was too small so Mrs Chan picked Annabelle to follow her.

Then left Joyce, Denise and me. Mrs Tham then comes along and we follow her to her car. Wa! Her car like never wash for ages. Nevertheless, we went in and she drove so jerky that we were like flung from one side to another when she turned. Super jerky I tell you! We started screaming and laughing at the back and she was like you wouldn't do this in your parent's car right? And we were like??? After that, she said that she could have driven even faster without us. ZOMG! Jerky and fast? That's a NO NO! I might just vomit anytime (that's not true la). On the way, she was like talking to all of us and about her son (didn't know she had one). Fun! When we reached Toa Payoh, she said you all don't wanna leave my car right? Then we were like how do you know? And she said I can read your minds...Wa! So yeah...

Oh ya, when my sister came home she was like I saw a whole long line of MG buses. Hahaz because they're school go to Toa Payoh Stadium, ours is Toa Payoh Swimming Complex, so yeah. We went out for dinner as usual. Then, we went to Harris for a while and I was thinking of buying a Meg Cabot book for _______ as a super belated birthday present. But my sister was looking at her books she has long-eyed for so yeah, I decided not to, maybe another time. If you know who you are, then that's good.

Ooh, this post is so super long, really gtg now:)
(P.S. If you have emoticons on MSN, can you send them to me? thx!)
Peace out!!!

Luv School in a Way:)

2008-03-31T20:54:00.004+08:00

Heyz Everyone! Caught some time again! Still broken! Anyway, I'll push things aside. Well, on Friday, Mrs Tham was dam freaky! She was like Charis come here I want to talk to you, so I was like okay...Then, she was talking to me about blah blah blah. And I was like answering and stuff, really freaky but at least she understands me:) (maybe you dun understand what I'm talking about but nvm)

Swim meet is coming up but I'm gonna miss some of it, awwwww....haha. (I wanna go la, it's fun!)We have handbells so we are excused and stuff, yeah. Then, I hope I sit in Mrs Tham's car to go to the swimming place. Wanna see her drive, no offence!

So sianz ok? Exam is like so extremely near...Mummy says I'm still too lazy and slacking too much and stuff. Urgh! why exams after exams? Even my Aunt says why exams one after another...haha, even adults complain:)

You know something? I think Mrs Tham is really nice. She doesn't treat me like a normal teacher does. Haha, maybe she treats you normally but not to me. I'm not her pet but yeah she's caring...Nice teacher! heh. XDXD

Byez, gtg...Peace out!

Broken to the Core!

2008-03-27T14:07:00.004+08:00

Urgh! Why is life like that? I'm depressed to the core, torn and totally broken. And hurt! Grrrrrr...

First, _____ goes pissing me off by rolling my eyes at me and not talking to me. Then, _____ goes pissing me off further by _____. Well, I dun wish to say it. I am so pissed la! Rawr!!!!! Oh God, pls pls help me.

Take my hand, I wanna be your friend.
I know I'm not perfect but I just need you!
We go through tough times together,
That's what friends are for!

Take my hand, I wanna be your friend.
Don't get on my nerves and you'll be alright!
Be the best you can be and I'll do the same.
You mean a lot to ME! My friend...

Okay, that's what I need to blurt out! I hope tomorrow is more fruitful and I forgive those who pissed me off no matter what! Cheer up! Yeah, smile and bee happy! :)

Now, I feel much better. Peace out...

Events at Random:D

2008-03-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

Hey people! Told ya I would try moi best to post so yup I'm back! Wow, many things have happened, boy! Let's talk about the more recent ones and forget about the old ones k?

Well, on Good Friday...I saw Rachel Loh, coincidence, at Venezia and I was like hello? Yeah, I just felt wierd. Anyway, my mum thinks she's matured because she dresses like a lady, well I would say she just dresses to the extreme, haha, no offence Rachel. Then, went to Vis a Vis for dinner on Saturday and met Alison. So ironic! And she didn't even realise I was there so I called her and she was like hi. Well, dunno why I keep on meeting people in two consecutive days. :)

Lately, I've been very busy too! It's just so hectic man! Well, the day just before school reopened after March hols (Sunday), urm I went out with my family to SSC. We swam then wanted to bowl but lanes were occupied so played Daytona in the Arcade room. Then, the previous day had like stressful Grade 6 Piano Theory exam. Had to cram everything ok? It's like dam difficult la...If you have done it then you know, it's far more difficult than Grade 5 one la. Well, hope I get good results though.

So excited k? Dai lao shi's wedding is like this Sunday! Dam happy! :D My mum's still thinking what to give her for wedding pressie. Anyway, wanna see dai lao shi in wedding gown, coolio! :D Haha:)

Ok, I haven't finished school homework so byez....

Stones into Space...

2008-03-10T14:50:00.005+08:00

Hey! So bored lurh...Got up super late today then had to do some work then had Chinese tuition then going to have Science tuition now...Bored out! Anyway, I still got lots of work to do! How wish I didn't have tuitions today then I could have completed my work! Gosh, time flies! Today is really the start of March hols...Well, I feel that I have done a lot of work during the weekend due to being locked up at home all day...

My Aunt also came last night so we were like kind of talking yeah...then now she is out and will be back like for dinner yupps...I'm bored, really have to do work, seriously got to get down to doing work! :/ Sad :( How I wish everyone didn't have to go through this period in which you just do work all day....

Have a blessed day k? Byez.... (Btw, I put this winter pic because I feel mesmerised by this pic for some reason...its just the nature, yeah...I love the bluez you know? Btw, blue is my fav colour but in the test I ask for 2nd fav colour...many ppl put blue, heh)

Hyper :D

2008-03-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Dam hyper la! Just finished baking cookies! Cool eh? I baked Peanut Butter cookies and my sister baked Earl Gray cookies...Haha:) Smiles all the way...I took some pics on my Hp since my didn't want to use her camera to take photos for me...Anyway, if you want to see the photos, you will have to catch me with my Hp k?

Feel accomplished not because of work but because of cookies! CHEEZE!!! XDXD I know I'm very hyper now! But now I've seriously got to do work! It's not up to date...might post tomorrow but once Tuesday comes, not really anymore...HYPER :D that's what I'm feeling now...dotz...lalala, bye...gonna do work now! Luv ya ppl! PEACE OUT! XDXD

I'm seriously hyper now, dunno how I'm gonna rest and sit down quietly to do work...WORK! dam :(

Friend Test!

2008-03-09T11:22:00.000+08:00

Hello! I got up like 8.45 according to my Hp time because I set alarm on my Hp. Then, nobody got up, so I tried to sleep but Krystal woke me back up with an sms, wow. After that, I smsed in bed with Krystal and smsed Berenice to see if she was awake but turns out she only got up at 10 plus, sleepy pig! Then, I finally got up at like 9.15. I tossed and turned in bed for half an hour, doods, shouldn't have wasted time tossing and turning.

Anyway, the reason I'm posting is because Berenice asked me too...Well, she says its nice to read, so I was like wateva, anyway, hope some more people do the test...Btw, Berenice copied me and did one test on her blog. If you want to do it, do mine first then click link to her blog...Oh ya, Berenice also chose blue for the friend test...Copycat! Anyway, I got 53% for her test, at least its better than hers, she only got 40% hor...

Now, I feel bad..I spent half an hour on computer...I need to do work and my Aunt is coming today! So I can do some liao tian at night, yupps...gtg do work!

Sleepy :O

2008-03-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

Aloha! Dunno why but I'm hooked on to the computer since afternoon so I'm posting a lot today...Well, was watching No Reservations just now...Quite nice except that it's PG13...bad but oh well, my dad allows so yup I watched it...And the test thingy, thank you Natalie, Berenice and Claudia for being good friends and taking the test...Seems that Natalie knows me well but she told me she guess almost everything...Then she retook the test and got 80% and I was like wateva but in the end only the 1st try was counted...boo Natalie!

Hope more people can do the test! My aim is to fill up the whole board with names, yeah! And if you want to know the instructions on how to take the test, look at my previous post k? My eyelids are drooping, gtg sleep...really tired especially after movies...Wanted to go on MSN to chat with Berenice but I think she is sleeping already, nevermind...Eww, my breath smells of durians, this sucks, hope it goes away tomorrow, thx to the lovely, creamy, sweet durians:)

Well, really tired k? Good Night! lalalala, falling into dreamland :O

Bored -.-

2008-03-08T18:49:00.000+08:00

Hello people, I don't know why but I posted so much....Anyway, had super early dinner...I had chicken cutlet which was unusually nice and durians...haha, not that I really like durians but they were creamy and sweet...

I'm really bored, I guess I should do some work instead of wasting time away on the computer not knowing what to do...dotz...Oh yes, to take the test you have to create an account first. After that you go to my blog, click log in then you log in then you click back and take the test. Thereafter, click submit at the bottom of the test then you will see the results k? I know it's a little troublesome but if you really are my friend you would do it right? Ok, this seems lame, but I trust good friends will so if you are my good friend then you should be doing it...Can people also give me their MSN add so I can add you and we can chat, yeah...Thank you!

Ok, I'm really bored, byebye...

Accomplished:)

2008-03-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone! Feel so accomplished! I finished quite a lot of work in such a short span of time! Very proud of myself!

Anyway, I shall not act ego when I am not ego at all! I'm supposed to baking now but doesn't seem that way because plans were changed. Oh yes, if you come to my blog, be sure to take the friend test that I have just added...Let's see who is the highest! And please tag too k? I love reading tags! But just dun spam and dun write ridiculous stuff like (charis is so lame) that's what Melissa wrote on my tagboard which really pissed me off....Well, Natalie is supposed to be taking the friend test now...Not sure if she really is...Haha, Krystal also forced me to help her to get the Golden Wheel pin on CP...Urgh! It's not even my account...And if I dun do it, she'll go pls pls pls on MSN...So irritating so I just gave in...playing the Aqua Grabber was fun and challenging but it was just so easy when I did it for Krystal...Maybe I shall do some more work tonight...Ok, Krystal dun get offended k? but it really is irritating when you go pls pls pls on MSN...

Ok, bye....Might post tonight! See ya everyone! I mean see ya on Thursday for Chinese Culture Camp...byebye...

Yown, yawn, yawn....

2008-03-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Super tired la, ok right gtg sleep soon but I forgot to say that after Miss Menon's terror thing, there was the lift thingy. As the books we heavy, we wanted to take the lift so we waited then when we got into the lift, it went down instead of up...grrrrr so we were late then we ran back to class heh, that's all...nothing much, just wanted to tell you all this funny part...And just now Melissa, Berenice and I were poking at each other on MSN, dam funny...Ok, good nighto everyone! Byebye...

Yay! Marchie Hols are here!!!

2008-03-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

-.- Hello Everyone! So glad I can have the oppurtunity to post:) Well, let's start off with exam marks...

Wa liao, Stephanie got higher than me for some subjects, feel so pai se..I'm in SBC leh, suppose to be smarter leh, feel super embarrassed la...Nevermind, I shan't tell my marks because I'm just too pai se...Feel super depressed because results weren't that good and English was really B A D...Thought I would get OK marks but didn't seem that way...The rest were ok but Maths was dam careless la, could have gotten 3 marks more lor which makes a big difference...

Oh yes, today we had Handbells, my luv. But then the instructor as I told you was pointless and he always is, telling us to play and play again and hardly corrects our mistakes in a proper manner. Then, I saw Mrs Tham so I asked why she didn't go attend her workshop thingy that she said she always does. Can't believe it! She actually said nevermind la, I dun want to go, I stared at her for a moment, can't believe a teacher not going for workshops which they are supposed to lor. Mrs Tham also claims that purple is a gay colour and she told me that my glasses is the gay colour, so mean! Heh...And she loves pink because her toenails are red and her fingernails are pink and she dresses all pink, even her necklace!

Anyway, before that Mrs Tham asked Vicks, Natalia and me to help her carry stuff. Dam funny la! First, Mrs Tham left her tag in her car so we couldn't get into the staffroom. Then, she said that we are rude to knock on the door so we waited until teachers opened the door. Next, Miss Menon terror! Miss Menon asked one of us to help her carry files to 5.6. Then, I was in front of her so I wanted to take but she held it tightly then finally she gave to me. After that, she came out again and told me to give back the files and gave it to nother teacher because she thought I didn't want to help. After that, she scolded 3 of us because we didn't learn from our Perth trip that we should have manners and stuff. Then, Mrs Tham was like give them another chance la then Miss Menon was like no la. So insulting! But at least Mrs Tham told me not to get affected because she thinks that Miss Menon was joking when I dun think she was. Dam freaked out! Miss Menon the Terror of Terrors!

Another thing, someone has hurt me so much but I don't think she meant to lorh, I'm trying to forgive her though. Then, there is this other person who also hurt me lor, feel dam sad! Why am I also getting hurt but at least I got friends who are there for me. Today, someone also got angry with me for a stoops reasons so she held my neck real tight as she says she always does it when she gets irritated. Listen, you had better learn not to do it again because you will loose out and maybe some ppl may not wanna be your friend if you do it time and again..dotz...Dun get offended k? I still treat you as my friend...

And of course now, I'm at home blogging on my lovable bloggu!!! This is another way of expressing my feelings. Haha, I'm chatting with Berries on MSN....Dunno what's the problem with her computer, she keeps on going offline then online then offline and so on...she is offline now btw...

Marchie Hols! I'm planning to bake cakes and stuff with my sister these few days like tomorrow, Sunday and Monday like that but I still have work to do...wateva, at least my mum agrees that I can chill out a little...Well, Berenice also invited me to watch a movie with her other friend whom I dunno..Anyway, she said after Chinese Culture Camp...We'll see to that...Hope my mum agrees...But I have dental appointment! Dam it! My plans are spoilt! Nvm I think I can still meet them at the cinema if that's possible and if my mum agrees...heh

My goodness, this post is so long...Just heard that my Aunt is coming over to my house on Sunday, yay! Double yays! She's a nice Aunt!!! Ok dun really have to go but just very bored so bye...will try to post tomorrow or tonight...Luv Bloggu!!! (Btw, Berries just signed into MSN again!!! diaoz)

Bad News has come!

2008-02-29T17:45:00.000+08:00

Well, people as you see my title, bad news is really here! Anyway, I shall begin with good news! CA1 is finally over! Haven't been posting because no time, had to study! Science paper was today! Section A was ok lurh but Section B was the terror of terrors! So, hope that I will get good grades for CA1! Today was also RI competition! Hope I do well! I got 56% for the Mock one, I don't mind telling you all my marks! Heh:) Highest was like 70% plus if I remember correctly. Haiz...

Now, bad news is here. I'm saying this bitterly mind deal. This might be the LAST post!!! Hear that??? Read back if you didn't see it! Well, in a sense it is good so I won't get distracted by blogging and stuff but it is bad because I have just got the hang of blogging very often since last year's holidays! Well, maybe when I get my new computer, this blog will revive and be back alive again! I feel so super sad! Anyway, the reason behind this is a very personal thing in my family so I can't exactly say it! It's a secret! I have always wanted to tell someone but I always say NO to my tongue that's why no one knows other than my family..I'm sorry I can't tell everyone but it's a family secret!

Oh yes, another bad news is that one of our class Science PSLE books has gone missing! I so suspect someone! When Krystin asked her, she was like," Oh, why?" Not even a definite answer! Now, the people in charge wants us to pay for Carolyn's book because the book actually belongs to her as she doen't have it yet. They call paying for markers and even Carolyn's PSLE book the class fund. (So stupid! We can actually easily get markers from the General Office.) I don't really want to pay but as a matter of fact, I think they should at least try to find the culprit first by asking her to leave behind the class when no one is there, so she won't be so embarrassed. Well, I guess people don't listen to me because they think that they're discussion should only be among themselves (those people in charge). It's totally up to them! Deal with it well I tell you peopel! Don't make a wrong move! It affects not just one person, but many! Sorry if I offended you!

Well, I would like to say some stuff before I may not even come to my blog for ages. I luv Handbells but not all the instructors. And I love you people most of all! If you read my blog, I treasure you as my friend, really...This is NOT a LIE! And one more, I want YOU to be my friend! If you are reading this, please be my friend! I know everyone has our pros and cons and I am no exception so if you don't mind, feel free to be my friend! I'm ok with everyone as long as you are not freeloaders (those who do not do your part in e.g. project work). Ok right, I miss my blog! And I will surely miss chatting with all of you! Maybe I may not post but I may still reply when chatting on tagboard. I will try find ways and means to look at my blog every day! I'm seriously sad! Bye people! This will never end if I don't stop here! Ok, bye bloggu, luv ya and my tresured friends, luv ya too! Miss ya! Bye!

CA1...Rawrrr!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-21T15:01:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I'm seriously not prepared for CA1...I haven't even started revising and I haven't done science calendar too! I feel so wierd and scared that I will score very low for exams!

I'll try start today since I'm not staying back and only have one hour of tuition today...So sad, I spent so much time on Commonwealth Essay and I didn't get chosen...Grrrr...How could this happen?

Oh yes, about the thing I have been talking about in the previous 2 posts...Things have gotten much better but there is still the tinge (if you spell it that way) of hurt in me...I'm thankful to Berenice! She's been a real nice friend to me! Haha...and she's my tablemate...haha...She's really nice, just that we get irritated with each other sometimes when we have to copy stupid bi ji fast or rather copy things fast...can't stand teachers who ask us to copy things so fast...

Anyway, I've got to get started with my work so post another time! Bye!

Happy Valentine's Day!

2008-02-15T17:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry people...I was so angry yesterday that I had forgotten to say a Happy Valentine's Day to all who read my blog! Well, on the whole topic in the last post...it has not gone and it is just increasing in me...more filthy words make me more and more angry, irritated and so on...

Oh well, I shall wait until something happens miraculously...sigh, dunno la...I'm neither happy nor sad...I just want this thing to get out of me somehow...

Right, today is Total Defence Day. We had a talk on it for an hour or so so we missed our Science lesson. Urgh! I brought all my books for Science and yet we don't have it...my bag is so heavy la. Today, we also had this RI Mock Exam thingy, it was dam difficult la. When you get one question wrong, you get 0 marks but when you don't answer, you get 1 mark, so lame. I left 4 questions blank because I dunno...hope I get good marks. Yesterday, or rather the day before yesterday, Mrs Ng was like Valentine's Day is a hot spot, then she was like get the joke? then no response then she said nevermind (roll eyes)...Well, just now I tried upgrading my blog but I think it's too troublesome and all my data is gone so I decided to stick back to the old one.

Oh yes, I'm intending to change my blog...I'll delete this one in time to come and set up a new one on livejournal...I think livejournal is so cool....but that will only happen like when I'm free...or maybe only end of this year because I'm really busy nowadays and I can't be bothered about these kind of things now...CA1 is coming and I haven't prepared at all! PSLE is also around the corner so maybe I'll do it at the end of the year and also it will be the new blog for Secondary school. Yeah....that's what I want...a new start, a new beginning...

Now, I have to do my work...Ok, will post another time, maybe tomorrow or Monday or something...Krystal wants me to post often although she doesn't even post much...dots...bye

Life's Like That...

2008-02-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

Why must this happen to me? Oh why? why?

I feel so broken in my heart....it's hurting me so much...I can't take it off me...
There's something I can't say but I feel like blurting out but I can't for some reasons sake...oh why? I feel so angry, depressed and irritated...I'm also really busy with my work and school and stuff and yet this thing is bothering me...sigh...

Why must life be like that??? I am totally torn apart in my heart but my outlook appearance is ok because I wanna act normal but it's really difficult! It's bothering!!!! Argh! Irritating....Oh God, I plead that you will help me.....I'm broken now........

I'm sorry about this people but this is really what I feel inside me, you don't see it but it is really is bothering!!! Help me by not irritating me more....that's all you need to do when you see me...Thanks a lot!

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

2008-02-09T15:15:00.001+08:00

Hello Everyone! Sorry for the late Happy Lunar New Year...

Wow, it has been a busy week for me..we had Chinese New Year celebrations on Wednesday at school and then we were dismissed at 10am, yay! After that, I went home and did some work.Dad brought me out to Chinatown because I begged him, so kind of him:)...Anyway, Dad bought the coconut candy me that I longed for. Gave one to Krystin because it was on offer so I bought two, yeah, luv it. It's really yummy!

Sigh, we waited for so long until we could go to JB (grandparents live there). Causeway was jammed like crazy at 2pm all the way till 4 plus so in the end we had to go. Luckily, when we went slightly congested. Good timing...yay! Didn't have to wait so long. Then, we ate dinner with grandparents...food was ok la, the maid was like super wierd...she overboil the vegetables and when clearing up the dishes, she carry only one can at a time...wa I can't believe her, does she even use her brains???

Slept late like around 1pm...Next day, we went to bai nian at Granduncle's house...we ate so much Chinese New Year goodies and had lunch there...scrumptious lunch, had pig trotters (yummy!). I was very full so I didn't eat much...then we went to my 2nd Aunty's house...wa nice and big, it was a corner terrace...we ate some more goodies (greedy little pigs...). Ok, our cousins and 2 uncles were gambling among themselves which was so stupid...i guess it's like extra ang bao money...anyway, we don't really talk to our JB cousins so whatever...

By the time we went back to grandparents' house, it was already 4 plus. Then, we slept because we were super exhausted. We then went for dinner with some relatives living at Granduncle's house. Nice dinner at our usual hotel Blue Wave and the restaurant is called Nanyuan (we go there every year, for the past 5 years I think). Well, loved it...After that, we watched some DVD about this guy who came out of prison and was transformed to become a Christianat Grandparents' house. Then, I watched the Bee movie with my family...actually I watched it before with my friends but my mum wanted to watch so she bought the DVD...

On Friday, which was yesterday, we went out with 1st & 2nd Aunties' families for lunch...Quite a nice lunch except got quite a few houseflies which is unbelievable (how can a restaurant have houseflies? Bad hygiene, hmph hmph...). After that, we drove back to home sweet home. Then, we went to my mum's sister's house to bai nian. Thereafter, we went for dinner with my mum's brother & sister's families at the Cathay restaaurant...Loved the dessert...yummylicious...

This post is so so super long, sorry...did so much in just 3 days...haha...tonight I'm going to Krystin's house for Bbq, so excited...I need to get some work done if not I can't go so bye...Oh yes, tomorrow I'm going to my Grandaunts' house to bai nian & receive more ang baos, so money face, shouldn't be...heheheh, byebye...

My Birthday is Tomorrow!

2008-01-31T15:51:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone!

My Birthday is tomorrow! I'm so excited la...I can't post tomorrow so I decided to post in advance, yeah. Now let's get started! Yesterday was so fun I tell you. During Science lesson, we did the parachute thingy, it was so cool la! We dropped the parachute down from the 4th level and timed how long it took to reach the ground and what's more, we made the parachutes ourself.

Oh yes, today we continued the parachute thingy during recess, as we couldn't finish in time so we decided to continue during Chinese lesson which was after recess as some of our classmates were putting up Chinese New Year decorations (which looked quite awful). When I threw the parachute down, we thought it landed on the ground so we asked Berenice to go down and get it but she couldn't find, instead she found it on the 2nd level roof (haha). So quick-thinking Krystin brought the classroom broom down to the 2nd level and we pushed it down...heheheheheh so funny. While we were at 2nd level the Primary twos stared at us as if we were crazy, heheheh...

Yesterday was fun, today was fun and I hope tomorrow will be fun, yeah...especially tomorrow, it's my birthday lor...Anyway, I'm so excited, I'm gonna have a sleepover party because Handbells only ends at 4.15pm, so the only way is to celebrate at night...haha...diao...Hope tomorrow will be fun and a fulfilling one for me and you...

Gtg get some work done! Bye...Have a Blessed Day!